Rain

2010-02-07T23:19:00.000+08:00

2010-02-07T23:09:00.002+08:00

Faber Drive - When I'm With You

Saw you walk into the room
Thought I'd try to talk to you
Babe am I ever glad you wanted me to
It's been two years to the day
Half the time I've been away
I know I'm not there enough but that's gonna change
'cause I'm coming back
To show you that I'm keeping the promise I made

When I'm with you I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you
Whenever you're not around
When I kiss you
I'll still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count when I'm with you

Yeah we've had our ups and downs
But we've always worked them out
Babe am I ever glad we've got this far now
Still I'm lying here tonight
Wishing I was by your side
'cause when I'm not there enough
Nothing feels right
So I'm coming back to show you that
I'll love you the rest of my life

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you
When ever you're not around
When I kiss you I'll still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
When I'm with you

Whatever it takes I'm not gonna break the promise I made
When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you
Whenever you're not around
When I kiss you
I'll still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
(Make every second count)
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
Yeah

2010-02-07T22:55:00.002+08:00

Owl City - Fireflies

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep

'Cause they'd fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But I would just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems

'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance

A foxtrot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep
(Please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep

To ten million fireflies
I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell

But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams

2010-02-07T22:51:00.002+08:00

Ke$ha - Tik Tok

Wake up in the morning feeling like P Diddy
(Hey, what up girl?)
Grab my glasses, I'm out the door, I'm gonna hit this city
(Lets go)
Before I leave, brush my teeth with a bottle of Jack
'Cause when I leave for the night, I ain't coming back

I'm talking pedicure on our toes, toes
Trying on all our clothes, clothes
Boys blowing up our phones, phones
Drop-topping, playing our favorite CDs
Pulling up to the parties
Trying to get a little bit tipsy

Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, I'mma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock on the clock
But the party don't stop, no

Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, I'mma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock, on the clock
But the party don't stop, no

Ain't got a care in the world, but got plenty of beer
Ain't got no money in my pocket, but I'm already here
And now, the dudes are lining up cause they hear we got swagger
But we kick em to the curb unless they look like Mick Jagger

I'm talking about everybody getting crunk, crunk
Boys tryin' to touch my junk, junk
Gonna smack him if he getting too drunk, drunk

Now, now, we go until they kick us out, out
Or the police shut us down, down
Police shut us down, down
Po-po shut us

Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, I'mma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock on the clock
But the party don't stop, no

Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, I'mma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock on the clock
But the party don't stop, no

DJ, you build me up
You break me down
My heart, it pounds
Yeah, you got me

With my hands up
You got me now
You got that sound
Yeah, you got me

DJ, you build me up
You break me down
My heart, it pounds
Yeah, you got me

With my hands up
Put your hands up
Put your hands up

Now, the party don't start 'til I walk in

Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, I'mma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock on the clock
But the party don't stop, no

Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, I'mma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
Tick tock on the clock
But the party don't stop, no

2010-02-07T22:47:00.001+08:00

Jesse McCartney - Just So You Know

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus:]
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus]

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

[Chorus]

2010-02-07T22:41:00.002+08:00

Jesse McCartney - Right Back In The Water

I could tell by the look in her eyes
Maybe I'm just another one of her lies
'Cause I know we've been through this so many times
Still I'm here though I'm burning up inside

[Chorus:]
And I try to walk away but I keep telling myself
She's the one for me
'Cause her love is so contagious
It keeps pulling me in
We were meant to be
And I can't leave her so
We're right back in the water

I could tell by the look in her eyes
All my friends keep telling me now's the time
But I know
Just the notion of saying goodbye
Breaks my heart it tears me up inside

[Chorus]

So we're right back singing
Ooh, Ooh c'mon, ooh, ooh c'mon
I wanna walk but there is something that won't let me singing
Ooh, ooh c'mon, ooh, ooh c'mon
She's the one that's always there
I could tell by the look in her eyes
Maybe I'm just another one of her lies

[Chorus]

2010-02-07T22:38:00.001+08:00

Owl City - Vanilla Twilight

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

2010-01-26T20:39:00.002+08:00

ARIES - The Aggressive
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny.. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, and family is very important to an aries. Aries are known for being generous and giving. Addictive. Loud. Always has the need to be ‘Right’. Aries will argue to prove their point for hours and hours. Aries are some of the most wonderful people in the world.. 16 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

TAURUS - The Tramp
Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight. Fight for what they want. Can be annoying at times, but for the love of attention. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. They can be self centered and if they want something they will do anything to get it. They love to sleep and can be lazy. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth! 15 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

GEMINI - The Twin
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners. Very Good at confusing people… Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Geminis will not take any crap from anyone. Geminis like to tell people what they should do and get offended easily. They are great at losing things and are forgetful. Geminis can be very sarcastic and childish at times and are very nosey. Trustworthy. Always happy. VERY Loud. Talkative. Outgoing. VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE. 9 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

CANCER - The Beauty
MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. A Cancer’s Love is one of a kind.. Very romantic.. Most caring person you will ever meet in your life. Entirely creative Person, most are artists and insane, respectfully speaking. They perfected sex and do it often. Extremely random. An Ultimate Freak. Extremely funny and is usually the life of the party. Most Cancers will take you under their wing and into their hearts where you will remain forever. Cancers make love with a passion beyond compare. Spontaneous. Not a Fighter, But will kick your ass good if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to! 12 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

LEO - The Lion
Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Usually happy but when unhappy tend to be grouchy and childish. A Leo’s problem becomes everyone’s problem. Most Leos are very predictable and tend to be monotonous. Knows how to have fun.. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Very predictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

VIRGO - The One that Waits
Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. A pushover. Loves to gamble and take chances.. Needs to have the last say in everything.. They think they know everything and usually do. Respectful to others but you will quickly lose their respect if you do something untrustworthy towards them and never regain respect. They do not forgive and never forget. The one and only. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

LIBRA - The Lame One
Nice to everyone they meet.. Their love is one of a kind. Silly, funny and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! However, not the kind of person you want to mess with…you might end up crying. Libras can cause as much havoc as they can prevent. Faithful friends to the end. Can hold a grudge for years. Libras are someone you want on your side. Usually great at sports and are extreme sports fanatics. Very creative. A hopeless romantic. 9 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

SCORPIO - The Addict
EXTREMELY adorable. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Will try almost anything once. Loves to be pampered. Energetic. Predictable. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want.. Attractive. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Loves to party but at times to the extreme. Loves the smell and feel of money and is good at making it but just as good at spending it! Very protective over loved ones. HARD workers. Can be a good friend but if is disrespected by a friend, the friendship will end. Romantic. Caring.. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One
Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found.. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. A loner most of the time. Loses patience easily and will not take crap. If in a bad mood stay FAR away. Gets offended easily and remembers the offense forever. Loves deeply but at times will not show it, feels it is a sign of weakness. Has many fears but will not show it. VERY private person. Defends loved ones with all their abilities. Can be childish often. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in bed..!!! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover
Love to bust. Nice.. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Grouchy at times and annoying to some. Lazy and love to take it easy. But when they find a job or something they like to do they put their all into it. Proud, understanding and sweet.
Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Cool.. Loves to win against other signs especially Gemini’s in sports. Likes to cook but would rather go out to eat at good restaurants.
Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart. 24 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

AQUARIUS - Does It In The Water
Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind, loves being in long-term relationships. Can be clumsy at times but tries hard. Will take on any project. Proud of themselves in whatever they do. Messy and unorganized. Procrastinators. Great lovers, when they’re not sleeping. Extreme thinkers. Loves their pets usually more than their family. Can be VERY irritating to others when they try to explain or tell a story. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter but will Knock your lights out.. 2 years of bad luck if you do not forward

PISCES - The Partner for Life
Caring and kind. Smart. Likes to be the center of attention. Very organized. High appeal to opposite sex. Likes to have the last word. Good to find, but hard to keep. Passionate, wonderful lovers. Fun to be around. Too trusting at times and gets hurt easily. VERY caring. They always try to do the right thing and sometimes gets the short end of the stick. They sometimes get used by others and get hurt because of their trusting. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good sense of humor!!! Thoughtful. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. Good friend to other but needs to be choosy on who they allow their friends to be. 5 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

See what i meant? (W)

2010-01-25T22:01:00.002+08:00

Varsity - You'll be okay

(Okay, o-o-okay, okay, o-o-okay)

I couldn't live without you, no.
Couldn't see myself without you but it's over now.
I'm lost when I'm without you, yeah.
My heart just doesn't beat the same, I ain't got no one to blame.
And when I'm alone, I tell myself, I'll make it on my own.

Like the lyrics of a sad song, Mine was feeling so wrong.
If you could only hear the words I say.
When your heart beats beside me.
Without you, I can finally, I just want to hear you say that you'll be okay.
You'll be okay.

(Okay, o-o-okay, okay, o-o-okay)

If I could turn back to us (Mm, oh)
Then maybe I could change the way I was.
Just to prove it to us, I can be all the man you need.
And you're still the only woman for me.
And when I'm alone, I tell myself, I'll make it on my own.

Like the lyrics of a sad song, Mine was feeling so wrong.
If you could only hear the words I say.
When your heart beats beside me.
Without you, I can finally, I just want to hear you say that you'll be okay.
You'll be okay.

I'm here to show you here to be okay.
She had left me so sick like Neyo said.
Damn. I'ma need a couple of minutes to bounce back.
Love is more important than the money I found yeah.
But it was too late, baby I know now.
When I saw you standing by the door like go now.
So cold like a snow cloud, so slow merry-go-round.
And when I'm alone, I tell myself, I'll make it on my own.

(x2)
Like the lyrics of a sad song, Mine was feeling so wrong.
If you could only hear the words I say.
When your heart beats beside me.
Without you, I can finally, I just want to hear you say that you'll be okay.
You'll be okay.

(Oh, no. You'll be okay)
(Okay, o-o-okay, tell me you'll be okay, okay, o-o-okay)

-

Y'know what? This song has legend! LOL. Italics for the words i wanna say, so.. yup.

2010-01-25T20:06:00.001+08:00

Okay i'll do a quick post.

Went K @ Chinatown. Bah. Okay i am done. BYE. :)

2010-01-25T19:43:00.003+08:00

JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds.
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.
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FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp.
Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
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MARCH:
Attractive personality.sexy. Affectionate.Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others.
Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.
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APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional.
Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.
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MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong
clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

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JUNE:
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer.
Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.
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JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.
Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be
quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
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AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends .
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SEPTEMBER:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive.
Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.
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OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of
what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
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NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciates praises.
High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable
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DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing
personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical

Wtf, Jan and June is really true. HAHA i am thirsty for praises and i am easily angered, see why i always get angry? That is me, live with it. I am ROMANTIC HAHA. Poor resistance against illness- true. Easily jealous (Y)

2010-01-21T01:50:00.003+08:00

Hey sup sup sup! I am missing out on Blogger! Because i moved my ass to..

http://rainloves-kisses.tumblr.com/

HEHEHE. No lah i'll just randomly pick a random date and come and make a random post on Blogger okay! LOL. Tumblr is cool! Because its part of Twitter lolol. Blah. Am very tired, very busy, very sick. Erm, which means life is VERY COMPLICATED. (Y) Fuck lifeeeee.

Okay then i celebrated Aaron's and Mindy's birthday! So..

HAPPY (BELATED)BIRTHDAY TO AARON KHEW
AND
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MINDY!

Okay i am out of here byebye!

2010-01-15T01:35:00.002+08:00

All my prediction went wrong. I thought i said till Poly.
Why did dumbdumb step in? Argh.

2010-01-15T01:33:00.000+08:00

Told You So - Jesse McCartney

Heeyy.
Ohh oh oh.
Ohh no oh no.
Whooaa oh no
Oh no ohh.
Ohh oh oh
Ohh. Yeah.

Looking at you now I can tell
That you in your new relationship ain't going well.
There's no reason your name should come up on my cell.
Unless your unhappy, but that shouldn't be the case.
Cause you said, said he was the one baby yes you said,
Said you were in love, cause...
When you left me you said that you wouldn't be
Coming back remember that, but I never agreed.

I hate to say it but I told you so,
Told you if you left that you were goin be miserable.
Cause he don't do it like me,
Or else you wouldn't be
Running back to the past
It was you that left me

I hate to say it but you know I'm right
Everytime you run you're comin for me late at night.
But right now you ain't got me.
Tell me where you're gonna be,
Cause I can't take you back,
No, my heart won't let me.

Girl, you know he can't touch like I do,
I don't see you trippin or flippin over his moves.
It don't take a genius to see he ain't that dude.
But you let him back,

You don't know what you was on when you said,
Said he was the one, baby yes you said,
Said you were in love, cause...
When you left me you said that you wouldn't be
Coming back remember that, but I never agreed.

I hate to say it but I told you so,
Told you if you left that you were goin be miserable.
Cause he don't do it like me,
Or else you wouldn't be
Running back to the past
It was you that left me

If there are hard times it seems,
But you ain't gettin no sympathy,
No baby not from me,
Cause I told you you should never leave.
See you chose this road
So you gotta go it alone
Remember I told you so.

I hate to say it but I told you so,
Told you if you left that you were goin be miserable.
Cause he don't do it like me,
Or else you wouldn't be
Running back to the past
It was you that left me

2010-01-10T08:12:00.004+08:00

And that is, the two of you.

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Didn't been updating because of school, and muthafucking busy and tired. Well, if you've following on my Twitter. Lol. I think i will create a Tumblr acc.. and maybe throw away my Blogger LOL. Tumblr seems so kewl. Muaha.

Look at the time lah. :( I slept for ytd 7PM till 7:30AM today. Stupiddddd. A lil' update about my life.. Life is still like that, just that i lost a friend. You go have fun with your clique okay? Because i trusted you and you bastard me. Thank you. :)

Am still thinking whether to go Sentosa today with MJR-ians. I have up till 11 to decide right. Ahaha! K lah bye. I go and try to create a Tumblr acc HAHAHA.

Pretty please?

2010-01-05T04:03:00.000+08:00

Haha omg. I just remember something!

Boys Like Girls is coming to Singapore!!!
Anybody wanna go with me? :(

2010-01-05T01:35:00.002+08:00

雨爱 - 扬丞琳

窗外的天气
就像是你多变的表情
下雨了雨陪我哭泣
看不清我也不想看清

离开你我安静的抽离
不忍揭晓的剧情
我的泪流在心里学会放弃

听雨的声音一滴滴清晰
你的呼吸象雨滴渗入我的爱里
真希望雨能下不停
让想念继续让爱变透明
我爱上给我勇气的 rainie love

久违的雨滴一滴滴累积
屋内的湿气象储存爱你的记忆
真希望雨能下不停
雨爱的秘密能一直延续
我相信我将会看到
彩虹的美丽

冷冷的空气很窒息
我无法呼吸
一万颗雨滴的距离
很彻底让爱消失无息

2010-01-05T01:13:00.005+08:00

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Watched Step Up 2 and omg i feel like learning dancing LOL. I don't want xia suay myself only. -_- Okay, so today's the first day of school and fuck, the class ended at 4. I can't survive lah. :'( At least Richie is temporarily beside me and we talked about anything. He kept telling me to stop dreaming and move on. Sighhhhh. *nostalgic

Haikal came over and we watched Alvin & the Chipmunks. I watched until i doze off. Went to lie for 15 min while he continue watching and sent him off after the movie. Napped on the bed again lol. Woke up at 12 and erm. I don't think i will sleep so early. Maybe around 3?

Cried on the bus home. So this was what you wanted for the past 4 months. Peer pressure? Tsk. Am not going to try to pull you back because you specialise in running away. Watched Hi My Sweetheart newest episode and i only teared at the ending song. Dumb or dumb? I wanna go to K and sing this song(er next post)! Fucking nostalgic. Sigh. I think when i sing that song i will be fucken emo LOL. Okay loves.

xo.

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We might have unfinished business, but I'm willing to let this go. The games we had been on, its too tiring to carry on. If you want me, say it. If you don't, then forget it. I deserve someone so much better.

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Whats lost can be found, but whats found might never be the same again.
By OKAYlahbye

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Maybe there is no way back to where we started, but if we try hard enough, we might still be able to salvage this situation.

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I'm not who I once was, because we aren't who we once were.

2010-01-02T09:40:00.005+08:00

I need to add one more New Year resolution..
Must use a phone for 1 year without spoiling/losing it.

Fucking dulan you mei you. Hahaha. Fuck again. Look at the time. I am sleepy but.. I HAVE BREAKFAST. Duck porridge. :/ I think i'll sleep at 11 or 12 plus? LOL. Really die. Screwed body clock. Imagine i go to school in the morning, awake.. then after school i straight go home(cannot stay in school) sleep, sleep until 2AM in the morning, use com for 4 hours plus then go to school. Very cb right? But quite cool leh. Really like a nocturnal cbk. HAH. Okay i want to eat my porridge, watch Marley and Me, play Bejeweled Blitz.

Seeya all. Back on quotes! Below below! :)

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I see you in my dreams, I see you in the sky, but baby I really want you by my side.

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I like to take naps, because when you wake up, you forget all the crap going wrong in your life, for a whole ten seconds.
(True enough.)

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I used to run scenarios through my mind of how we would end up together in the end.
(But all the scenarios didn't end up the way i thought i would.)

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I'm just misguided. I will get back on track. I just need the opportunity, and the right person to lead me through.

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XO :)

2010-01-02T03:44:00.002+08:00

OKAY. NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS!

1) Study hard for O's.
2) Take care of my body acnes(omg how to take care you tell me).
3) Every school day sleep before 2am(haha fuck i wonder how to achieve this).
4) Sit up-right(I am a bit hunched)!!!
5) Get a job at the end of year(like after O's lah).
6) Love the ones who worth to love.
7) Learn to trust love.

OKAY SEVEN BECAUSE I LIKE SEVEN. :)

xo you! :)

2010-01-01T23:30:00.003+08:00

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Happy New Year! :) I am an ass by changing the date to 1 Jan 2010(Its 2 Jan now) because i suck. :D Let me start off by what i did on New Year Eve k! Went to kbox with 64 @ E! hub and sing sing sing. Okay, then to toilet, then bought strawberry with chocolate fondue, then off to take bus with initial plan to go Bedok. But once the bus start to move and i wanted to listen to FM, i found out i lost my phone. Wtf. :( Alighted at the next stop with Zhiqiang and Nai ge. Ran back the toilet to find, but erm. Nothing. My phone still can call through, but i set it in silent mode. So i guessed somebody threw it in the dustbin or something lah! :/

Fucking sian you know. When you used the phone for so long, so many smses, then you just lost it like that. Argh. Then my sister don't wanna sign plan for me. Ah nabei fuck. "Why you wanna change to plan?" then i ask you back lah, "Why you last time wanna change to plan also?" Fucking dulan sia. Zzz.

Went to Bedok to meet others and ate dinner. Thought hard of where to go next. Took bus to Geylang with attempt of booking a hotel room. But can't because they only allow 2 person in a room but we have 5. :/ Assholeeeee. So we sat outside, saw one car accident, then walk walk, saw another accident. My NYE very nice! See accidents. Eek.

The other 4 went to drink Soyabean while i stone there and when clock strives 12 we went,"Ohhhh, happy new year." NO EMOTION, TOTALLY. Went to SB's house after soyabean to daidi. Seriously i don't know what i was feeling during the NYE. I don't see enthusiasm, i don't feel happy, i don't feel sad. I think what i felt is nostalgic. I really wish time can go back to the 9 months with V. I hope we can still start afresh but when i think of what happened i immediately shut the thought.

Now that all the smses gone(er not all but most of them), i need to continue walking. So i spent my New Year @ Chinatown with family for dinner at Spring Court. I bought shades muahaha. Still getting upset about the thought of no contract. FUCK. I am sorry but i am annoyed! :( Shall do up another post now about my New Year resolutions! :) xo.

People alert!

2009-12-31T07:28:00.005+08:00

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Fuck, look @ the time now. I AM DEPRIVED OF SLEEP OMG. I am heading for K lunch later lah!!!!! WALAU. Kill me, seriously. :( :( :( Still watching Hi My Sweetheart, starting hunt in GT, sounding horn in MH, checking Twitter. Omg SB told me to sleep early. :( :( :( I am afraid later in the late night i am like a walking zombie! ZZ.

Just realised that i am not in contact with many people. Like Gujuan, matt, naux, jeff(hahaha mainly Taqic. If any of you read this please say hi to me via sms or call!). EVEN HAIKAL, he is an asshole. So difficult to contact plus he has no money to go gai gai with me. Also W. Because he is uh-hum me. Zzz. Just hope that once school reopens i can catch up with Haikal. ;)

SAD THING IS, i won't be coming down often to 64. But i must be grateful that i managed to spend the past 3 months with them. Muaha. BUT YAH, i said to Joohoe that we will study together for O's. Then we will both stone at the books. LOL. We can figure out what will happen.. He,"Eh this qn(a maths) how to do ah?" Me,"Don't know leh?" He,"OKAY SKIP."

Omg i hope i have a better life. I WILL TURN IN SOON. The sun will be burning my ass later. :( Okay good mornights. :)

Bye 2009.

2009-12-31T04:29:00.009+08:00

Bye 2009. :')

2009 has been a year that many things happened. Be it sad or what. I still love all of you. :) I still remember that i stayed at home last year because V was sick and we can't countdown. And honestly, i don't set new year resolutions. But as for 2010, i need to study hard for O's alr. I can't be slacking around anymore. :)

The people i love more..

This doesn't mean anything. I know there is a piece that is still somewhere inside me which i can't get it off. I need more time. And by all this doesn't mean that you stop befriend me. I didn't lie to you, i didn't. You think that i was a 2-timer that i was with _ and that i have a crush on you. You didn't gave me a chance to explain and you get away from me.

I'll say, enjoy the last day of 2009. Welcome 2010. I love you all that i find no words to describe. xoxo many!

2009-12-30T09:55:00.003+08:00

Am watching this drama nao. :)

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OKAY, before i start talking about this drama.. let me blog what i missed.! :) So yesterday was the 29th. Yeah, bad memories. Haunts me till now. BUT STILL, Dec 29th is my mum's birthday! :) SO,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! :D :D :D

I gave her a hug and a kiss after years! I mean come on, i forgotten when was the last time i kiss her lah. :( felt so loved lor. ^^ went out with Gary and SB to City Square and er, we tio screen by FIVE policemen. Fuck. But we were fine lah. :) Walked around and took photos. Settle down at some ulu place then play daidi. Lol.

Ooh, i finally bought my books for sec4. HAH. And fuck, look at the time now. I haven sleep okay? I've been watching Hi My Sweetheart from 5+ to now(not all the way lah, i FB a bit, read blogs a bit okay?). I seriously want to sleep lor. But walau. Fucking sian lah! I want to watch. :( EH EH, don't list me as one of those 64 fanatics! Arigato. :/

Okay lah, done with my blogging. Carry on with the drama!

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If you're not those of drama watcher you can try watching Episode 4! That episode is reely reely good! :) Made me cry. I can't count how many tissue is on the desk now. Dammit. Hahaha! If you don't know what i am talking about, please refer to my Twitter like at the right side lah! >>>

Some sentences from the drama. :)

“我喜欢你，叫我惊世骇俗丑不拉叽香菇头。我喜欢你，一天打我八百次。我喜欢你念英文的声音。我喜欢你，喝醉酒要我背你回家。我喜欢你跳舞的样子。我喜欢你，你明明不是我心目中喜欢那样的女生可是。。。我就是喜欢你。”
- If you want me list down why i like you, i can list as long as you want.

“有人说你跟一个人在一起多久，你就会用那一样的时间来忘记他。”
- So which means i will need 9 months to 2 years to forget him..? Is that so?

Actually, why can't drama be like reality? Idk. BAH.
Actually, if you give me a choice, i wouldn't want to forget you. But, the pain you gave me is so much that i wouldn't wanna remember. :'(

Fuck, i kept telling my friends to move on, stop living in the past. But here i am contradicting myself. Wtf? SLAP ME LAH. I do have something to blog but, the post is getting wordy so please, check up my Twitter. :) xo you all. Luv.

2009-12-27T21:20:00.002+08:00

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Sup. ;) I will start blogging from the 23rd. ;) Went out in the evening to do up my nails + SB's too. $57 flew away. Yay. -_- In the future i think i'll just buy the fake nails and paste them on. Zzz. Okay, did our nails for 3 hours + and we departed ways. She went home and i went to class chalet. Met up with the others at E! hub and then watched the movie...

Bodyguards & Assasins. Rating: 4.5/5! I cried okay, i cried hor. Hahaha! :)

Then back to the chalet at around 2. Didn't ate lunch and dinner so i gulped the bbq food like pig. Talked to Hazel and stuff. :) Started to rain so we moved to the shelter and continue talking. Slept at around 5:30 and woke up 4 hours later to check out. It was raining like shit so we were all drenched by the time we reached downtown east. Went off alone after a lil' bit of breakfast. Headed to Geylang East to collect my contacts and home to bathe and nap. Woke up at 5:15 to do up myself for X'mas eve!

Off to Orchard Cineleisure and ate at BBQ Chicken for dinner. Slacked around Cine and bought tix for Sherlock Holmes. Rating: 4/5! :) Then bought tix for Alvin & the Chipmunks 2 and went for supper. :) 16 of us went so.. it was a big big big group. Caught the movie and rating: 3.5/5. Movie ended near 5. Some went separate ways and mine went Mac. Some ate food and we went to catch bus home. :) Slacked @ SB's house and off for breakfast with Zhiqiang and Ben. Went home at 7:50am, remove make-up and slept. :)

Woke up in the evening and went Daryl's house for housewarming. Sushi + alcohol. Some vomitted, some lan-ed, some slacked. In whole an "eventful" Christmas. :) Went home at 5. :)

Stayed at 64 ytd and today. Ooh, i spent 1 hour on my bed to read back SMSes. Miss the times when we uses scissors-paper-stone to determine who to buy food, where to go, who can use the iTouch. And also see who see the most cheer-you-up shirts. Blah. I didn't forget them. I hope you didn't too. :')

Okay done! xo.

P/S: Fuck love. They screw friendships.

2009-12-26T05:40:00.002+08:00

Hi! ;)

Showing i am here only, thats all. I will blog later in the night or something.. HEE. Been out till morning and stuff. Christmas celebration @ Daryl's house for alchol party + sushi! All the drunkards and all the uh-hum. Whats with the world..? OKAY I WANT 2 BATHE BECAUSE I SMELL LIKE THE DOGS @ DARYL'S HOUSE. HAHAHA. Okay goodie mornights! xo.

2009-12-21T12:57:00.002+08:00

All of me - Varsity

I heard a sad song playing on the radio
About a girl who loves him
But she never really let it show
Outside the rain keeps falling down my window
I'm crying inside, gotta see you tonight
I understand and if somebody broke your heart before
But it wasn't me who left the pieces laying on the floor
But it's me who's out here in the rain knocking at your door
Paying the price for all of his lies

I'd write you a song but I can't find the words to say
To tell you what's on my mind
But even a symphony can't say what you mean to me
So how can I, how can I give you

All of me
When all I get is half of you
Now tell me what am I supposed to do
If all I get is half of you
If all you give is half of you

Wanna be the reason that you never look for love again
Baby girl, I wanna be your lover, your best friend
How we gonna make it if you never gonna let me in
What can I do to prove that my love is true

I keep holding on for as long as this gonna take
Until you realize (realize)
Look in my eyes
And I'll never let you be betrayed
I'm not that guy, but how can I give you

All of me
When all I get is half of you
Now tell me what am I supposed to do
If all I get is half of you
If all you give is half of you
(I just can't help it)
(I just can't help it)

Now girl you got me locked up too many times
Got me paying for somebody else's crime
But how can love burn
If it doesn't hurt
I need more than this so how can I give

All of me
When all I get is half of you
Now tell me what am I supposed to do
If all I get is half of you

How can I give you all of me
(Half of you) When all I get is half of you
Now tell me what am I supposed to do
If all I get is half of you
If all you give is half of you

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Hah, fuck. I just remember i post this lyrics before. Zzz. Urgh nevermind. Very lazy to highlight but yeah. Its somewhere there. :) I only got to sleep 2 hours+ ah fuck. :( I wanted to nap but.. Zynga Poker luring me ah. Zzz. Going to accompany Toh eat mac later on. GG lah!! The stupid mission on Ghost Trappers so difficult! NNB!! :(

Okay lah byebye :)

2009-12-20T22:36:00.009+08:00

Kinda like it when my hair is wet lol.

Cab back home from NDC, cbk say wrong date _l_

Daryl's birthday celebration :)

Tao huay at Geylang.

SB mum's studio.

Thanks ah Pat Fong. Thanks.

Hello twin! ;)

Jarren,"I like my back hairstyle" -_-

Wannabe ah-bung HAHAHA

Sorry for the lighting but i am very lazy to edit all.

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And so.. met Edwin in the afternoon for lunch at AMK hub :) Catch up and stuff. Hah. :) After that went arcade awhile then B2 for durian waffle.. because my scandal wants it. Went home with the intention of napping before Avatar since its a midnight movie.. but SB called and say she is heading to Bugis at 8. Wah neh neh. Chiong-ed my dinner and went out. 6 of us went they to meet up with Nai ge and Zhiqiang. Split into 2 groups; 1 to starbucks for coffee(supposedly older people but i joined them lah! *BUCKS LEH.), 1 to arcade. Jeremy, nai ge, zhiqiang and me went *bucks while Mun, Daryl, Pat, Toh, Jootong, SB to arcade. Slacked like siao then i went off first to arcade awhile. Lol.

Played awhile then the other 3 came. Joohoe came to meet us after work then we walk to Iluma alr. Bought popcorn and stuff. 11 of us sat 2 rows lol. The fucken problem is.. : Why was i sitting beside Patrick when the whole of 64 knows if we stay together is equals to disaster?! Zzzzz. And sure enough, throughout the movie, we spammed crap okay. Theres this part about Eywa(sp.?) that lookalike jellyfish thingy.. zhiqiang(he sat beside me also) said,"Wah, god sial." then Pat asked me what he said, i repeated and he jitao laugh out loud. -_- This part when they wanna revive Grace and they were doing this dance, i was dancing happily while watching them dancing. Pat laughed like shit also. I guarantee we were one of the people in the theatre laughing our ass off and laughing damn loud (Y).

Avatar is indeed a great movie. Really can see the 14 years of effort lah! I don't really enjoy this kind of movie but with the accompany, i swear it was damn damn damn nice! 5/5 ratings hor! :)

After movie all of us excluding the Yeo's walked to Geylang for taohuay. Walked home again. Slept at 5:45am and i woke up at 7:35pm. Cool or cool? :D Stayed home, and yah, i ate breakfast with Pat today morning at near 6. (Y) Slept at 7am and woke up at 5+.

SB came my house to comtemplate the clothing to wear for X'mas eve.. so we decided to stop by Bugis tomorrow for some shopping time. Hoping to stop by Orchard for the sales there also. So if you're lucky, see me at either the 2 places okay? :)

xo! :)

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I know we don't talk much, and sometimes we even walk right past each other without saying one word. But then there's those times when our eyes meet and I know deep down, you're missing me as much as I'm missing you. That's what I live for.

Years from now, I won't remember every day, or the things that made us laugh so hard until our stomachs hurt. But I'll always remember that they were the ones that were there, always.

I hope someday you'll find all my quotes, all my words, and read them all. I hope you'll know that they're about you, and when you read them, I hope that at least a single tear will run down your pretty face.

2009-12-20T04:09:00.001+08:00

ZZZZZ.

Am trying to blog from 8+ till now. Seriously idk what i've been doing. Just got the camera from SB so i can upload the photos to my com(Ya at this stupid timing). Still thinking of eating breakfast later on with Pat and stuff. Wanted to order Mac but.. NOOOOO :( zz. Going to get my photos uploaded alr. Bye :)

Self-type lyrics hor :O

2009-12-18T19:08:00.006+08:00

Goodbye My Love - 8Eight

I love you

Hello, have you been okay?
Is your face cute like before?
A bit of my late regards and our late parting,
I put into writing.

[Rap]Won't you ask me why I send you a letter?
A message to someone's homepage is more common
Holding my pen, maybe I won't be able to express my feelings right
I feel like I can't do this in another way
It was very hard when I loved you
Nothing could ever be like I wished
I promised myself that I wouldn't bother you again
Even if I wait until i die, you won't come

Goodbye my love, I'll send you off now
The memories and remembrances, I'll forget them all
I'll erase and erase and remove any mark of love
From my heart

[Rap]They say that if bodies separate, hearts separate too
That's pointless to me, it's all lies
As time goes by, every day I get more tired
Everyday I ask myself if we can't go back
I could squeeze my longing heart and scream out, but you won't listen
At the end of our memories, after I got conscious of our break-up
I send you off of my heart, goodbye

Goodbye my love, I'll send you off now
The memories and remembrances, I'll forget them all
I'll erase and erase and remove any mark of love
From my heart

If time kept passing
I thought I would forget you
Again and Again
You keep getting into my heart

No, my love, I can't send you off
You, you, I should forget you
Even if I erase and erase, I think you're the only one for me
I'm sorry

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Anyone has this song? ._. I wannnnntttt. Haha.

So when we were getting bored..

2009-12-18T03:32:00.000+08:00

Look at how many eeyores she has. Zzzzzz.

So we make the cam to face-capture or something.. when my face was(see the photo below)..

this. :( So i wasn't a human. AHHHHHHHHH.

COOL RIGHT JARREN COOL RIGHT \m/

and then it was her turn..

+o(

So i got bored while Jarren was dozing off...

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So.. more and more webcamwhore pictures. :/ Fuck it is 4:04AM nao. Not so much of nostalgia mode tonight. Hahaha. Maybe is because i have a laptop by myself because that asshole is talking on the phone and dozing off. -_-

Dammit. I caught up with Bleach.. gonna watch One piece next which is only 3 episodes.. then 1 episode of K.O 3anguo.. then fuck, what should i watch? Zhiqiang told me that the new Taiwan Idol drama show not bad.. maybe gonna watch it.

Jarren's mum is sweet by offerring to help me make milk in the middle of the night. So sweet lolol. Still unsure about tomorrow's lunch treat with Edwin though. Neeway.. i fucken have infection. Neh neh pok. I need alcoholllll. Boohoo. Need to trim my hair leh. Si liao. :( :( :( Tomorrow night for Avatar.. :O Okay i go play game with pk alr. Byebye :) :) :)

So.. ending this post with..

xo! :)

:)

2009-12-17T21:40:00.000+08:00

:D

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Currently at Jarren's house. So apparently when i used her weighing scale to weigh my weight.. turns out that i am fucking only 46kg.. ZZZZZ. Something is very wrong with either one of the weighing scale. Zz :( So whats my weighttttt?!?!?!

And also that after 6 hours at her house.. we did nothing. We webcamwhore-d(as you can see), slept for 3 hours just now.. FB, MSN, Twitter. Stupid. Really need to do work till like 12 or 1. Then go play wii with her and her sister :)

So we were gossipping about the past and Jarren's past is fucking hilarious and fucking unexpected. Dammit. If i was persistent.. I think i will be with MS nao. HAHAHAHAHA WTF WTF WTF. Right nao, we are saying what would happen if we did all the things. STUPID SIA. She asshole! "Ta bian dao zhe yang wo bu hui regret gen ta together lor." <-- typical sgrean (Y)

Still gossipping.. still gossipping.. still gossipping. EH YOU NOT TIRED AH JARREN. "No not tired." Go _l_ your sister. Okay i need to go do work liao. She is having this group convo somewhere and i feel like shutting down her whole lappy from social interaction so we can concentrate on our Terrorism thingy for SS.

K bye. :) xo.
NOSTALGIA MODE BTW. AND JARREN TOO. NNB MY ONE SO SAD YOUR ONE SO HAPPY. GO FUCK THE WALL TYVM. ):

2009-12-16T04:19:00.004+08:00

突然好想你 - 五月天

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今
终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你
带我走过最难忘的旅行
然后留下最痛的纪念品

我们那麽甜那麽美
那麽相信
那麽疯那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们
还是要奔向各自的幸福
和遗憾中老去

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
最怕此生已经决定自己过
没有你却又突然
听到你的消息

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所以到最后我还是放不下你。还真是无助啊我。在给我多一点时间，让我证明其实我没有你我还能过得很好。那一丝丝的希望，盼望，不要再来了。我受够了。我好累，好累。之前答应我坐我的双脚的人至今已离去，只好靠自己了。

2009-12-15T03:56:00.002+08:00

:) What? Sec2. All the gossips haha. I miss the pasttttt.

Hello hihi i miss you. Give me a sms if you see this okay? :)

:')

Hi how are you doing inside there?

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Omg fml i haven even start on HW. Gonna start doing them with JarJar horhor? :) See ya on Dec17 okay? Luv you xoxo. ^^

Idk why but.. every late night i will tune myself into nostalgia mode. Zzz. I don't likeeeee. But, :( Went Geylang for supper just now. Er, got a sudden heartache when i thought that school reopen all this supper gone. :'( fml x2.

If possible tomorrow- er i mean later afternoon i will get my nails done. :) Hehoha. And my new contacts before X'mas :O Am eating cold tao huay naooooo. :O Am repeating a chinese song on my iTunes. Lolol. Gonna go watch my Bleach after blogging.

I resist myself from clicking there. Yayness much? How i wish there is a drug that i eat and forget a particular person. :') Like K.O 3anguo. Speaking of that, i forgot the recent episode come out alr. Drama.

Hooollllyyyyyy, my period come alrrrrr. :O those symptoms please fucken don't visit meeeee. :( Btw my com is getting laggy- no i mean it IS laggy but i can tolerate lor. But now its like shit and i feel like smashing the com. Zzz. My helix piercing is doing good. Kept playing with it lol. Tragus i am coming muaha :) Like yay 7 piercings alr(although i don't use 1 of them). :O

Ahlaaaaahhhh, enough. I go nao okay? :D Luv you all xox!

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She's not the same girl that she was at the beginning of the summer. Experiences, people, places, memories, and love have changed her forever.

Yeah, I'll admit it. I miss you. I miss us. But I can't think about those things anymore. I have to move on because this... This is pointless.

You don't even know me anymore. It's been so hard to tell you I'm sorry. I know, I know that we were more than friends in the end. And it's so hard, it's so hard to take.

Please fucken buy me that watch lah(Past posts)! :'(

2009-12-14T05:50:00.002+08:00

Because when you are down, they are the one who pulls you up. (L)

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(Ohkay, fucked. Typing 2nd time. :( )
I am waiting for Dec17 because EN RUI, JARREN YEO HUI QING, hor hor? :)
Am also waiting for Dec18 so Brenda ends her papers and we can bitch about all the bastards in the world. Goodluck for your papers, xo!
Am also trying to spend more time with 64(well mainly Smallbear) because when school reopen i doubt i will be coming down as often. :/ bah!

Like what Brenda said,"At least i tried my best, at least i gave my all. But, did you?" Yeah, i tried my best and gave my all, but there is always another party who runs away and act as if nothing. Because they don't feel the pain like you do, geddit? I feel like i've been in my dream the whole time for the past 1 plus month.

Although part of me still hope you are included in my future to be that significant other but when i think back about what you did, i smack myself and say,"Dream on."

The whole part of me still hopes that you are my best friend. Hanging around outside school, Starbucks, HOT4, iTouch Notes, singing while walking down Orchard and the wah-you-still-want-buy-bangles-ah?-can-wear-until-your-shoulder-alr face. I miss you and you know that.

I am sick and tired of this bad dream, please take me out. I have many more to say, but i am kinda fucked up because the post i typed earlier on was gone and its getting early. Love you all, xo.

I still want to break down and cry. :')

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Our days are never coming back. I know it's you that can't forget.

She wipes the running mascara from her eyes as she whispers to herself, "Maybe friends don't really last forever."

There's that occasional night where you just break down and cry 'cause you know that no matter what, things will never be the same.

Taylor Lautner!!! :'(

2009-12-14T00:44:00.002+08:00

What if all the Edward Cullen(Robert Pattinson)'s fans come bash me up? :/

My screensaver+desktop wallpaper. LOL. Omg. He's with Taylor Swift!!! :'( Noooooo! He has like many pacs and he is fucken hot. Omg. :'(

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Stayed at home. Blah. I am fat. I bought Crunchie, Snickers and M&M for tonight's supper. Fml very much. Okay byebye. :) Fact: I don't like to hang with people 2 years younger than me. I hang out with people older than me. Idk why but i am like that. Muahaha. Okay luv you all velly many. So please buy that watch for me in my previous blog post! :) Tata.

P/S: I love Smallbear. HAHAHA PLEASE DON'T FREAK OUT. :)

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He's so perfect with his dark brown eyes and if I look at him, I might as well be told a thousand lies, because he looks so innocent just standing there, but then he turns to me and I just stare I hate how I miss how everything was how he just got up and left because my heart isn't flawless, but neither are you. When a heart is breaking, what can you do?

I thought that I am ready to be the girl I used to be. The one who never cried, never got mad at dumb things, and the one girl who would never worry about being in love. But as I grows up, I realized that I can’t be the girl because I’ve grown up.

I guess I just have to accept that you aren't the person that I once knew and that we aren't best friends like we once were.

2009-12-12T22:20:00.003+08:00

Can somebody get me this watch? :( Its like so pretty. I will keep my mouth shut from nonsense if you buy me this :D

https://www.vpost.com.sg/shopatpost

Its like, usual price $188, now at $78! I will NOT rape the person who buy me this :D

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Oohlala. Let me recall what happened the past i-don't-know-how-many-days okay? Went to watch Mulan after work on Tuesday with Smallbear. While walking out she told me she cry like shit. I told her,"Huh? Got that sad meh? I never cry leh. Shit." She,"Wah you heartless sia you." Me,"I tell you i forgot how to cry alr!" :/

Next day my muscles are aching. I bet Hazel was feeling the same too. Bah. So thursday i went to National Dental Clinic for nothing because some cbk(the lady that served me) told me the wrong date for appointment. Go eat shit tyvm. Went home and nap awhile then out with Smallbear and Jootong to Suntec for Watsons fair. I am not going to wear a 4-inch heels anymore. I tried and shit- i feel like a giant. I WAS EVEN TALLER THAN JOOTONG. Walau fml. :( So eventually the 3 of us was split up and my phone was with SB and her phone was with JT. JT found me and we spam called my phone, but fuck, that ass forgot i threw my phone inside her plastic bag. So i went to sit at one corner and read New Moon. JT came and said SB called her, so we went back and she had the-what-the-fuck-face when i tell her my phone was all along with her. Zzz. Fuck her life very much.

Camwhored in the toilet and went to food republic to sit and wait for Zhiqiang and Tianhong for supper. Ate prata and i da bao banana prata home. Went home and opened my prata at 5AM. Fuck, why so many ants?! :( Busy flicking the ants away and gobbling my food down. Lol. :/

So yesterday morning around 10:50 i went tearing down SB's flat trying to wake her up to watch match. Gotten ready and went out. :) Then went home with reminder from her that we have to get ready fast but i still dilly-dally and used com. I haven even bathe and she called,"You done alr not?! We all waiting for you leh?!" Fml. I rushed like shit and went out. :/ Went to celebrate Daryl Chong's birthday one day in advance. :) Went to Tampines and eat Nihon Mura. Then went to TM arcade to slack and stuff. Sneak off with SB to pierce my helix. :) So yeap, got it pierced! Yay :) Head over to ECP aftermath. And please. If anyone wanna book a bbq pit at ECP, please forget about booking F and G area tyvm. I was fucking tired from the 1 hour walk from B to G okay. Zzzzz. Went there for nothing actually. Jumped in some skiing place and slacked. At 12+ threw Daryl down the sea. They even brought clothing for him to change okay. How sweet. Walked back to area B dying and ate mac before cabbing home. :)

Was intending to eat bean flower(tao huey) this morning with zhiqiang but fuck, i overslept. :( Maybe tomorrow morning. Hee. Peter Chao rock your ass, :) Seeya all! xoxo.

Just sheesh, bitch.

Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you're a good person and a good friend. What's meant to be will end up good and what's not won't. Love is worth fighting for, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don't, you just have to move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you.

I can't believe it's over. We promised for us to never get to this point. We failed each other.

Remember all of the good times and all of the special people that were with you during them. Let go of the past, but don't forget it 'cause there are a great many things that can be learned from what you've been through. And most importantly, follow your heart, stand up for what you believe in, and take your own path, always do what you want to do.

2009-12-08T01:05:00.003+08:00

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:) Was planning to continue to watch my Bleach just now and when i looked at my FishVille(FB) and saw something. So went to check things and blah, just thought of coming to blog. :)

Richie was being a sweet guy and asked how am i doing on MSN. :) Sweet of him. And i kinda miss going out with manjusrians. I seem so out of them. Hahaha. I replied Richie: Haha! Not so good! You? :)
Good to hear that he's doing fine, and bet that every school trip overseas are fucking fun! If theres is any next year, i will go. Actually i did wanted to go for this year's Cambodia trip. But my passport is lost(yeah, dumb right?), and i only wanna be there to make a wish at Angkor Wat. :) Anyhow, next year i will put in my heart if i am ever goinggggg.

Happy to see friends caring about me on MSN. :) Luv you all, xoxo.! I've decided to give up on love alr. I mean, no point on whining, no point on being sad of somebody who is faraway from you, no point of having sweet dreams and no matter what happen these dreams won't come true. And also no point of wishing at 11:11. But i will continue doing, just as a part of motivation around me. :) Friends are now part of my life, and also family. All of these are enough.

All relationship sucks when quarrels just keep coming and never-ending. Enough of those for the past 2 years. A break will be nice. I shall see how long will it take to see myself in romance again. (': Bye lovelies!

It's always so hard to say goodbye to the person who've stepped in your life for so long. But no matter what, you know that you will be strong to continue your life with other friends.

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Dry your eyes, clear your mind. You just gotta take it one day at a time. Dust off your heart, take it off the shelf. You gotta remember to love yourself.

Everything changes. Friends become strangers. What we hold so dear slips away. The past keeps on fading, but I will never forget you.

2009-12-07T01:47:00.002+08:00

Heh best. I don't need to work later! Actually its kinda disappointing though. But because of timing and all this. I don't mind actually :) Still don't know about Tuesday's though.

But yeah, the job is like in front of you lor. Just because you didn't acknowledge that you missed the opportunity. Neh neh pok. Okay lah. I can 6 sleep alr. Off for my episodes. :)

2009-12-07T01:36:00.001+08:00

Just a short post for tonight.

Something different to post: I AM HAVING WORK TOMORROW. I need to wake up at 5 to bathe and change and stuff, 545 meet Smallbear @ Lavender, train to Boon Lay, take bus from there to reach the destination, meet the person @ 7, work from 9AM-9Pm. <-- FML.

I ONLY HAVE 3 HOURS TO NAP LATER. ZZZZZZ. AHHHHHHHHH.

Okay i go watch my Bleach for one episode and eating my shark fins' soup also. Nights, xoxo.

Because i don't care about my blogskin..

2009-12-05T13:57:00.004+08:00

My face was like that when i saw some things just now. :(

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Something's wrong with my blogskin. But let me fuckcare in the while okay? I am not motivated to change it. -_-

Heya folks. Sorry, didn't update the past how many days? Braindead okay. Very lazy to think also. ._. Reasons for not updating is because of pure laziness and i find myself ranting about the same thing everyday. Lol. :)

Caught New Moon yesterday at cine with Terry Nggggg. Kinda disappointing though. :( BEST(erm, sarcastic okay?) ending (Y). Went to eat supper yesterday night and back home. Eldest sister is back from hostel and am happy because the 5 woman in the family can sleep together again. Very cosy leh. Hahaha.

I've been only sleeping at going 6. Need to tune my body system back once school starts. :O Been having many dreams. Dreams in one sleep. Continuous dreams. Weird dreams. Sweet dreams. Er, currently no sad one. ._. If you haven been following me on Twitter then, you know nothing lah. Hahaha.

Saw some things that made me heartache a lil'. Damn irritated. Is this thing going to continue until school starts? :( :( :( Okay, going to meet Claudia PYT later. Cool right. :) Luv you all. xoxo.

Since when you'll come and find me and tell me whats inside you?

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There's no way to be sure if it's love or not, but I swear, if you could see my heart, his initials would be engraved in it. <3

To get up in the morning and know you have to face another obstacle, takes determination. To smile when the only thing you want to do is cry, takes strength. To act happy when it's the worst, takes courage. To be joyful when the only good news is the best of the worst, takes support. To be there and help people through the roughest times takes love.

Need to perk myself up! (':

2009-12-01T01:35:00.004+08:00

A little too not over you - David Archuleta

It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else

It's for the best I know it is but I see you
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around, you're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you, not over you

Aren't memories supposed to fade?
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it'd be this hard

Should be strong, movin' on but I see you
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around, you're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret everything I said
No way to take it all back, yeah
Now I'm on my own, how I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand!

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you, not over you

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Stupid song :/ I am not going to bold this lyrics because i will end up bolding almost every line. ._. I suck. Nb. :'(

P/S: Hope you're alright after your grandma passed away. And also, i miss you.

2009-12-01T00:49:00.009+08:00

Pictures post, as promised :)

About 2 weeks back, drank bacardi breezer with hair up.

Nice hand sign Daryl (Y)

Left to right: Half of Ben, Daryl, Patrick, Tianhong, half of Damien.

Hello Botak :) :) :)

Ling Feng! (L)

Stupid Haikal. :O

Performance night! :)

Just look at my eye colour. :D

Ending of with
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My stupid face + hair. :)

2009-12-01T00:15:00.004+08:00

:')

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Okay. Intended to head out for some camwhoring session with Smallbear - but canceled because we are kinda lazy and the sky in the afternoon was dark. :) So went her house with the whole bucket of nail polish and monopoly after we have our lunch at Geylang east. Was digging out my monopoly while i saw the valentine's present in my cupboard. Took it out and show Smallbear. Joke (Y) then saw the letters me and Gujuan wrote for each other during class last year. Those memories. Mmm. I miss them. While reading i was telling Smallbear,"Wonder how is Gujuan doing. I miss her :)" Haha.

Painted my nails baby pink! :) Left with my foot... Idk what to paint. I can't find my monopoly deal. Very emo because ______. Fucking fill in the blank. Not a word but a phrase. :)

Fell asleep and woke up to buy bbt at Balam road with Daryl :) Came back and started to play monopoly. I pwn okay! I had like fucking lots of money and Daryl lost. Bummer! :) Went to eat with 64 and a few rounds of daidi so now i'm here. :) So yeah, i am done talking about my day. I promise i promise i promise, picture post next up! Love.

I have a special part to post tonight! Reflection- DON'T LAUGH LEH. Because i really think that Singapore is fucking small and so, here goes.. Its funny how we know each other. Like i know Haoxun through CDAC, then he is a Macphersonian who knows Joohoe. Then Linlin from Maha Bodhi(spelling?) who came to 64, friends with Jarren and Yvonne and others, was even classmates with ______, even we became friends. Sometimes i think i am fortunate to have friends that know each other together. It seems like we're more.. bonded. I am fortunate. xoxo.

Whats with that emoticon on your personal message? It makes me worry. :'(

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Yeah, I talk to other guys, I laugh with other guys, and I hug other guys, but none of them will ever mean as much to me as you.

When you can't stop smiling after you talk to him, and you still get butterflies in your stomach and that huge smile across your face every time you see him, that tell you that he'll always be something to you.

(Yeah. Please don't run away from me.)

So there's this boy. And the way he laughs makes me smile. And the way he holds my hand gives me butterflies. His smile makes my day better. And just about everything about him makes me happy.

2009-11-30T05:00:00.004+08:00

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Got this via ______'s blog via her friend's via many other place:

Guys are assholes. If you argue with him, you’re hard-headed. If you’re quiet, you don’t care. If you call him, you’re too clingy crazy. If he calls you, he says you should be happy.
If you don’t love him, he’ll try to win you. When you do love him, he leaves. If you don’t fuck him, you’re a tease. If you do, you’re easy. You tell him your problems, he says you’re irritating. If you don’t, he says you don’t trust him. If you lecture him, you just want to argue. If he lectures you, it’s because he ‘cares.’ If you break a promise, he doesn’t trust you anymore. If he breaks it, it’s because he had to.
If you cheat, he expects it to be over. If he cheats, he wants another chance. Guys drink to forget about girls; girls drink to think back about the guy. When guys are in love, they become poor; when girls are in love, they become pretty. Guys can forget, but can’t forgive; girls can forgive, but can’t forget.

When guys are heart-broken, they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl; when girls are heart-broken, they try to find his characteristics in another guy. Guys wish to be her first love; girls wish to be his last.

Okay i kinda disagree with this : When girls are in love, they become pretty.
What bullshit, i became uglier when i was attached okay. -.-

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Okay so about Saturday's night out, was pissed before meeting Daddy because of some stuff. So Daddy was like SMS-ing me and saying he will sayang me and buy me an ice-cream to make me happy. Met and he really bought me an ice-cream. Luv you Daddy! Then went down to arcade to play HOT4. Went to play Photohunt, Mahjong and Cooking Mama also. Lol.

After that went outside to the open air. Badass daddy wanna smoke. -.- Went back down to lan to play L4D2, stupid mouse so difficult to click. Nb. :/ Went Mac to sit down, slack, eat shaker fries and disiao TMM - I'm not telling you all what TMM is, please ask me via MSN. HAHAHA. Badass daddy wanna smoke again. -.- Then went to watch 2012. Went toilet halfway. I can't spot Peter Chao! I am emo. :( :( :( :( :(

After movie went outside and this muthafucking daddy wanna smoke again. Ma de 3rd time alr hor. Zzz. Ben called Daddy to tell him get his ass down his pub. So we cabbed there. Stayed awhile then Daddy accompanied me home via cab. :) Sweet right. Haha. But he still can't tolerate me singing out loud. Boohoo.

Reached home at near 3, peed and changed slippers. Met Terry Ng and Benzima for supper. Walked to Macpherson Lane, stupid shop never open. So we cabbed to Geylang east Mac. :O Ate and stuff. Daddy called and tell me he coming down chap lao. Went home first and he called. Went out with my poker and ben was with him. Went to the shelter in front to play and mum called at 6 to nag. -.-

Went home and used com to 8. Haha. Slept till 3+. Used com again and met Smallbear and Linlin at Smallbear's house for Sitex! :) Train down. Many people. People banging me like i sponge like that. Went to John Little to shop. 3 of us bought chocs and i bought lipstick too. :) :) :) Very happy. Haha.

Bused to Paya Lebar and have KFC for dinner. Went to Watsons to buy blusher before eating. Nearly went off without paying because i forgot i was holding the blusher and ran out for food. ._. After that went SB's house to have more HTHT with the 2 of them. Cool much. Had so many HTHT. Went home with intention to shit. :D Bombed the toilet and used com till now. Daddy's phone was being confiscated by the officer. Dumbzxzxzx.

Brain, body, lung, heart, kidney, anywhere you can name. I am not feeling very well. I feel like breaking down and cry. When was the last time i did that? Sometimes i really feel like slapping you and tell you to stop hiding your feelings.

Goodnight, world. I smell like SB's blanket because of the perfume. :/ Perhaps tomorrow afternoon for a picture post! :) (5.03AM nao, gosh.)

P/S: Because i love laughing at you being left behind and that i show you i can live my life better without you, although a small part of me still kinda look out for you.

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And when she’s gone, remember you once loved her. You once needed her. You once cared about her more then anything in the world. You can’t deny she was ever there. You can’t deny what you had. You can’t deny it ended over absolutely nothing. You can’t deny you still think about it. No other girl could ever love you the way she does. One day, you’ll realize what you’ve done and you’ll come back. And she’ll.. well she’ll be gone.

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And pretty soon, my diary is going to get sick of hearing his name.

2009-11-29T08:00:00.002+08:00

HELLO!

Its 8:00AM nao, and i haven hop my ass to the bed! HAHAHA. Surprisingly i am not tired, at all. But i need to get my ass up to the bed before my father wakes up. NEEWAY, just come to blog to show that i am still alive at this hour.

OOOOH, I SMELL LIKE DADDY NOW. HIS SMOKE SMELL + HIS PERFUME + MAYBE HIS BODY SMELL ALSO. He is being a very good daddy by doing many things that cheer me up. But badass daddy still can't quit smoking. Boohoo. Okay i will blog in the night later on. Not trying to spill so much if not i don't feel like blogging later! HAHA.

Okay tata mina-san! No photos and quotes because i am just trying to increase my post by 1 hit. OOPS. Okay CONFESSION TIME!:

I LOVE MIKE CHIANG I LOVE MIKE CHIANG I LOVE MIKE CHIANG! I am his number 1. fan, please give yourself a slap if you say something bad about him! HMPH! Tata and mornights(learnt from typicalben!)! xoxo.!

P/S: I am only left with 5 hours to sleep, damnnnnnzxzxzx. Was playing Texas HoldEm Poker. LOL.

2009-11-28T18:52:00.003+08:00

Don't trust me - 3OH!3 :)

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Actually i am kinda lazy to reblog the whole thing since i typed out in point form alr. I guess all that sums up alr. :) Past few days been sleeping at around 6. I slept my whole morning and half afternoon away. Wooooo. :) Didn't had a beautiful dream today also. Boohoo. Yay, cheehao daddy date me out tonight. :) Gonna watch 2012 at Iluma again. I hope i can spot Peter Chao! "Chao ho sai, mother fucker!" :D Daddy is botak and he is being a good guy by saying,"Don't worry i will bring you home!" HAHAHA omg botak daddy. :)

My iTunes is being good to me by shuffling to the songs i wanna listen! Been like that the past few days. Very happy. :) :) :) I LOVE MIKE CHIANG. LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE. Hahaha. I need to go now. Luv luv. I am quite free after today. (: Date me out please. Hee. L4D2 later too! (L)

P/S: Please wait for a pictures post! I am flooded with pictures in my folders to be uploaded. Luvluv.

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And it's those past midnight conversations that still mean everything to me.

And at the end of the day, you're the only one I can't get out of my head.

It's so cute to see someone with a relationship holding hands, flirting, just being in love. And even though it might be something you don't have, it's something that one day, you will find.

Just fuck off from my life.

2009-11-28T04:53:00.002+08:00

Yeah fuck, i missed 11:11 today and saw 11:12. -.-

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Okay, i am not going to post now. Because i can foresee a wordy long post and i will tire myself earlier before i can sleep. Stupid Ghost Trappers, don't let me sleep. HMPH. So i'll just list out in point form what i will blog tomorrow in case i wake up with a beautiful dream and forgets what happen past 2 days. -.-

Met Haikal, L4D2 (Y).
Home(change), bused to Tampines.
Met Linlin, Smallbear, Kitmun, camped toilet.
Departed, train to Kallang.
Meet Cristal, cabbed to Indoor Stadium.
Back school, bused home.
Went Smallbear's house and bitched. :)
Woke up with a sweet dream. Cristal cut it off by calling me. But its okay! Because i know whats the main point. LOL.
Bused to school then bus brought CO to Indoor Stadium.
Played games then rehearsed.
Saw ZLS, hugged him! Omg omg omg omg omg i am so in love with him (L)!!!!!
Slack for super long. Make-up and camwhore.
Our turn, some muthafucka video-ing me. Zz.
Went back to pack and chiong to see David Tao sing. (Y)
Chiong to his room outside to get his signature and stuff.
Security guard quite hawt actually. Damn, didn't ask his name, oh well. Enough of bimbo-ing.
Saw David Tao, kenna shoo by security guards. Nnb.
Went off and a ____ asked me for number... ZZ/LOL?
With Cristal's family to KFC.
Ate and her dad ferried me home.
Play Murderer.
Back home.

My point forms, best (Y). I am dehydrating and i need water. I need to confess something:

I LOVE MIKE CHIANG I LOVE MIKE CHIANG I LOVE MIKE CHIANG I LOVE MIKE CHIANG I LOVE MIKE CHIANG I LOVE MIKE CHIANG I LOVE MIKE CHIANG I LOVE MIKE CHIANG I LOVE MIKE CHIANG I LOVE MIKE CHIANG I LOVE MIKE CHIANG I LOVE MIKE CHIANG I LOVE MIKE CHIANG I LOVE MIKE CHIANG I LOVE MIKE CHIANG.

I will be his second mistress if i can. Did i just say that? :O I luv him omfggggg. (L)!!!!! One exclamation mark is not enough okay.
Can somebody date me out on 28 Nov (Sat)? :O I don't wanna stay at homeeeee. Boohoo.

2009-11-28T03:34:00.003+08:00

400TH POST. :)

Although i didn't blog for more than a day only, but i think its quite long so..

I AM GOING TO BLOG SOON. MAYBE TOMORROW OR LATER ON. IMMA GO POM POM NOW. LUV YOU ALL. XOXO.

:D :D :D :D :D

Nights!

2009-11-26T05:48:00.003+08:00

Goodbye to all the photos, goodbye to you. I am still so afraid of looking back. But fret not, i will get over and done with as soon as i can. :') Friends - if you don't mind.

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Okayokayokay, a quick one before i head to sleep! Fucking look at the time nao. I think i am suppose to feel sleepy, but not a bit i do. Still wanna stay awake. But nope, i don't want a scolding from my mum. Eh btw, yesterday was my dad's birthday, so..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FATHER :) 50 liao. :O

Went to Smallbear's house and slacked for 2 hours. Y'know what? I am meeting Jootong tomorrow at 12, so i am left with less than 6 hours to sleep. Boohoo. Okay luv you all. I needa go, like now! Actually i do have something to blog about.. but. I forgotten. :( Okay maybe one: I think this holidays i can forget about getting a nail art! ._. Prolly only a classic/french mani & pedi. I need to pamper myself. Boohoo.

Actually i do pamper myself. But fuck, where all my money goes? :( Okay gooooo. Nights! Sweet dreams to all of you. Luv.

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Just when you think that nothing is going to make your day better, you turn the corner and see him waiting for you with a big smile on his face.

It's weird how you go from being strangers, to being friends, to being more than friends, to being practically strangers again, so fast.

(Yeah fuck.)

:)

2009-11-26T00:36:00.006+08:00

I really do love your smile! And i miss it too. :')

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本大小姐刚上茅厕放大号只用了两分钟！- Forget it if you don't understand. I just wanna praise myself. HAHAHA. Okay neeway! Went for job interview and will receive a call from them on Monday. :) Went to eat at LJS and started to talk crap. ._. Then to The Face Shop! Daryl was left alone outside and the 3 girls were shopping around the shop :) I bought lip gloss. Muahahaha. Then went arcade in hope that there is HOT4. I went,"Eh eh eh!!! Have leh have leh!!! -approach closer to the machine- *Machine under maintenence* NNB!!!!! :'( " You should have see my reaction. Best (Y)

Then Smallbear and Kitmun went to some shop whereas me and Daryl went to the pet shop to see dogs. :) :) :) Fucking cute okay, i wanna kidnap one away. :O Cristal called and started to rush me. Went toilet and the girls camwhore a bit. ._. Departed with them and trained to Kallang. Bused 12 to her house and she was shocked that i recognise where her house is :) Cabbed to Indoor Stadium. We should have walk lah nb. Reached also wait. -.- It was our turn and i befriend some monk... :/ and a girl, Yingying! ;) I cool. LOL. She also very funny. :) Danced, camwhored a bit, exercised. (Y)

Walked to KLP for *bucks and also to meet with Cristal's dad. Saw one actor which i don't really know his name. Kept staring at me like i will ask your signature. Bleah! > :D Cristal's dad ferry me home and tadah i am blogging. :)

Done and idk where i will go tomorrow afternoon! Rehearsal in the night againnnnn. Luv you all. xoxo! Maybe heading to Smallbear's house later on. Taaaaa.

P/S: I am done with renewing links and deleting unused ones and updating :) Mission accomplished! *pat myself on my shoulder* :D

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I hate how we're fading away like this. No one needs you like I do. You know that and you always have.

I didn't know that I liked you until that one night. I was staring at the ceiling and all I could do was think about you.

Just ask her if she thinks about him. She'll think back to an old memory, close her eyes, and smile. She'll say, "Yeah, every once in a while."

2009-11-25T13:15:00.004+08:00

Which way you wanna walk? :) Me: The right one.

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So i stayed at home the whole day until 10+ PM, Smallbear called to ask if i wanna get my ass out to play Murderer. I said okay, later i get out. I was busy harvesting, plowing and planting my FV lor. -.- Tedious workkkkk. Got my ass out and there were 14 of us at the playground. Sat beside Joohoe and Daryl. Me, Daryl and Ben gang up see each other's card one. ._. Got so bored of being a victim, then a new round, i fucking got police! :) Caught Damien and shit, who is the other person? :x I forgot alr. Muaha. Best memory (Y)

Went to buy drinks at 365 alone and this ahlian and beng behind me. Want get drinks can say properly ma. I have a fragile heart. Lol. Went back and continue. Sat beside Smallbear and Jootong. Finally got murderer. Wink at Daryl. He fucking laugh at me. :( :( :( Then wink at Kitmun and Damien. ._. I forgot who catch me. :O

Played till 12+. When back Smallbear's house. 4 people queuing up for toilet. -.- Slowly all went home and left me at their house. Daidi-ed with Smallbear and Joohoe. She kept smelling her kor's hair. So i tried also.. er, not bad lah. LOL. Then jootong bathe finish, i went to smell his. Eh wtf, i know what shampoo he use lor. ._. Is the same as ______. :/ Suddenly thought of ______, boohoo.

Went home and used com. Suddenly very tired then went to sleep alr. ._. Going on date later Smallbear, Daryl and Kitmun at vivo. Nolah, job interview. Muaha. Seeya all. xoxo. I wanna befriend _____, she is a very sweet girl! (:

Deleted photos about you. Left the ones in my phone to be deleted. I am not going to throw or keep bearbear away. It doesn't mean anything about you. Its just a soft toy that i hug to sleep. :)

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I miss the days when boys had cooties and recess was too short. When life was too long and decisions were made by "eeny, meeny, miney, moe." Only skinned knees brought tears and boys were yucky. Goodbye only meant until tomorrow and when your clothes didn't need to match. The only race issues were who ran faster and fun went on forever, without a broken heart.

I find myself glancing in your direction in between periods. And it makes my heart jump all over the place when I catch you staring right back.

(You even made my heart happy by waving at my direction with that signature smile and wave of yours when we aren't that close that time. And seriously, i do miss that signature smile and wave of yours.)

Tired.

2009-11-24T15:46:00.007+08:00

So i shall stop being your doll and stop letting things to happen that benefits you.

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H-h-h-h-hello! :) Wanted to blog yesterday midnight.. but i think i was getting sleepy very fast, so i didn't manage to. :) Okay, i met the others at 6:30. I was the last, so am i supposed to feel honored or something? :D But when we reached we waited for like 2 hours lor. So whats the difference if i came earlier or later. Hahaha. Initially played daidi, but more wanted to join in so we opened up to play murderer. 14 people played. :) So reached and we rehearsed. When Zheng laoshi turned back can see me. I did hand signal saying,"I-love-you~" He immediately,"*vomits* Hahahahaha!" Idiot leh. But i still love him. Hahaha.

Then saw Joanne(every CNY will come my house bai nian). On the way back school raped juniors. :x Sat Cristal dad's car home. Reached home use com and bathe, went to Smallbear's house at 1. Saw tianhong sleeping there drunk. :O Then went to the living room to gossip with Smallbear. Suddenly we heard tianhong crying.

Smallbear,"Eh, whats that sound?"
Me,"Don't know leh, like laughing like that."
Joohoe,"Eh, to me like crying liao."
Me and Smallbear,"Shit!"
-run to the door-
Smallbear,"Crying sia.."
): Tianhong relax okay!
Me still love you as a friend :)

Zhiqiang came and we went to eat supper. Shit. If i do this almost everyday i will become fat lor. All the oil. :/ Ate banana prata and cheese egg prata. Lol. Walked back and bought bacardi breezer to drink. Nehnehpok zhiqiang say he want see me cry then i can join tianhong. Cb right this guy. :D Went to smallbear's house to slack awhile then went home at around 4. :) Slept with my heart pounding and face red lor. Nb.

Boo, no date today. ._. Maybe a date at Smallbear's house with 64? Haha. xoxo.

I shall stop being your doll and that you think you can play with me. I will delete everything about you that i think of. I hope you suffer more than i do, muthafucka. _l_

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Twenty years from now, I am going to look back and remember that there were those few people who could turn every frown into a smile in a few simple words. Those people who lifted my head when I was losing faith in myself. Those few people who carried tears on their shoulders after every fight, every break up, every death. The people who always knew what I was feeling by the look on my face. The few who accepted who I was when everyone else laughed in my face. Those people that accepted every decision I made believing that I’d make the right decisions. The few who knew who I really was. Those people that made the biggest difference in my life. The ones who were my strength through hard times. My best friends.

Boy: What's your biggest fantasy?
Girl: To be kissed in the rain. How about you?
Boy: To be the one kissing you in the rain.

Be lucky to have him as a friend, 'cause if you and him date and then break up, that friendship will never be the same. And in those months, you don't have him as a friend, those will be the months you need him the most, and you won't have him. He's a great friend, so don't wish for more than you have, 'cause you have it better than anyone to have him me your best friend.

2009-11-23T17:36:00.002+08:00

What if i get this kind of tattoo? :)

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Boo, need to show my face at school at 6:10 later. But i am still blogging and eating food! Pro or what? Need to go SCH later for rehearsal again. Booooo. After this week i think i am free from school but draining with work. Trying to be independent hor. Don't look down on me. Reallyyyyy.

Btw i succeeded in deleting an album on my FB. Need to delete folders from my desktop and my phone. Need to continue walking alone. :) At least i know who my real friends are. Thanks 64, thanks Haikal. :) Luv you all. xoxo.

Signing off, love.

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There are so many different types of friends. The friends that come in your life for a year, the best friends that come and stay for a while but will eventually leave in high school. Then there's the forever friends, the kind that come into your life, make a huge impact, and never leave.

It's like a best friend, but more. It's the one person in the world who knows you better than anyone else. That someone who makes you be a better person. No, actually they don't make you a better person; you do that by yourself because they inspire you. A soul mate is someone you carry with you forever. It's one person who knew you, accepted you and believed in you before anyone else did or when no one else would. And no matter what happens, you'll always love them and nothing could ever change that.

[ Dawson's Creek ]

2009-11-23T13:44:00.004+08:00

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Hello :) :) :) Did anyone miss me? :/ Heh. I don't wanna know the reply man. Hahaha. Okay neeway, will start from JE swimming complex. 11 of us went - Tianhong, NJP, Pat, Ben, Jiaxin, Jootong, Joohoe, Damien, Darryl, Jeremy and me. :) Played at the lazy river first... and another group of people nearly have trouble with us because of me. Nolah, heng never :) Played at the slide then wave come alr, all chiong to wave. Funny, we at the side standing one vertical line, the wave come we,"Woahhhhhh~~~" then jump to grab the wall. :x Don't know what happen, Jeremy started shout,"Kaopeh!" then the others,"Kaobu!". "Kaopeh!" "Kaobu!" "Sibei Kaopeh!" "Sibei Kaobu!" "Kampua kaopeh!" "Kampua kaobu!" Hahaha.

Then started to rain, all hide under the bridge. We hide at the same one as the group mentioned on top. Pat deliberately talk like he shouting to attract them. -.- Then we can go down the pool alr we dropped in lazy river. :) Wave come again and practically only the group of us were there to own the pool first. Hahaha! Lie at the start of the pool and was singing until really cmi, tianhong came to pull my leg and "drag me to hell". Zzz. They even did water boys somemore! Wth! ._.

Played for 3 hours then we went to bathe alr. After that ate at the KFC. :) Trained home, wanted to head to grandlink to play, but didn't because many of them want watch soccer. So slacked at 64 daidi. Around 2+AM when to Macpherson Lane to eat supper. :) Pat, Ben, Pk, Jiaxin, Tianhong, Jootong, Zhiqiang and me. Ate cheese egg prata. Muaha. On the way back got some freaky thing happen. Pat most humji. First time see one (Y) hahaha.

Went home and used com till 5. Slept till 10:50AM woke up, 11:35 met Jootong to head to Orchard to pass money to the work person. ._. Went to walk around Forum shopping centre while waiting. 1:30 met and went off to walk around Forum again. Cristal called to say is meet 2:15 outside school. Cabbed home and rushed like shit then cabbed to school. Join the others to go SCH. Rehearsed then back school and went home to change with Cristal. Join her family for dinner at Nihon Mura! Enjoyed myself. Hehehe. Went home at around 9 and to Smallbear's house to play daidi. They went to eat and i went home. Intended to nap only because Zhiqiang wanna eat supper again, so i told Pk to spam call me if they are going to eat. But none called me so i slept till 9 in the morning. -.-

Had a bad dream while sleeping... then i woke up use the com 10+ slept again. The dream continued itself. Wtf. Bad bad bad bad bad. But i didn't cry lah. Boo. Going to eat with 64 again. Seeya all. Rehearsal later again. Luv you all. Tata :)

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Ever have that one person in your life that you just can't give up on, the one person that can screw you over time after time yet you always seem to give them another chance, and no matter how many times you say this is their last one, you know it's a lie because there's always just one more waiting for them. the one person you know you're better off without but yet you can't find a way to let them go because deep down inside, you wouldn't know what to do without them. The one person you know doesn't deserve you but yet you choose to overlook it because you love him.

Go up behind her and tickle her. She'll scream and yell and tell you to stop. But I promise she'll secretly love it. You're her entire world, kid.

2009-11-21T12:01:00.004+08:00

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A quick one before i head out to Smallbear's house to meet up with others. Late for 2 min alr, but not that bad because her house is only 20 steps away from mine. :) Cool. I hope tianhong and nai ge will protect me from Pat. He suck man. LOL. Did i just say he sucks? Oops. :)

Neeway, i bought a wrong trap in MH, am very emo about it. 300k you know. :'( Cry liao lah. Oh, my sister is sick! Should i or not tell her past to me? :x Okay gtg. Luv you all. Have a good afternoon and evening okay! (K)

P/S: Yay! No more popup box from Twitter alr! :) :) :)

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Let's face it. We've changed. We've all changed. Somewhere between summer ending and school starting, we've all gone in our own directions. Hearts were broken, friendships diminished, new love started and new people came into our lives. We no longer spend all of our time in our own circle of friends, we no longer talk for hours about nothing at all. We've changed--some for the better, some for the worse. Some of us are finding love and others are trying to let go. Even though we've changed, we all know that even though we're all finding our own place in the world, that when we find love, when we let go of love, when the tears fall, or the happy smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, and no matter what happens, nothing will never change so much to the point that we're not all friends forever.

No matter how serious life gets, you still gotta have that one person you can be stupid with.

2009-11-21T03:26:00.003+08:00

If only JE Swimming complex's slides can be like that. I think i will stuff to death inside.

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Boohoo. Was reading back my blog post from Nov 07. All the typing like.. like that one laa . so scary lor ! How did i manage to type like that. ._. Stopped reading until Dec 07. I am afraid that if i read more i can't take it and break down. Which totally sucks. Heart is not functioning well. Me don't like. Me want time past a bit faster than this. :/

I lost the courage to sort things out. Brainwash me please. I turn in nao. Luv you all. :)

"You and your branded stuffs."

The truth is that I gave my heart away a long time ago. My whole heart. And I never really got it back.

All I could think about was that time we stayed up all night talking. You didn't say that I was wrong or stupid. You didn't laugh at me when I confessed my wildest dreams. You just listened, and it was then I knew that I wanted to be with you.

2009-11-21T00:45:00.004+08:00

As you can see, new blogskin(I hate to find blogskin the most). Yay. I need to include and change the links for some people on my blogroll. All the links like not in use alr and i am super lazy to update. :)

So, CO was SLACK. (Y) Yaoming ahgong came and he act yi ge shy. -.- Idiot. Took bus home after accompanied him for his lunch. He wanted to jio me to pub!
Then i say,"Whatthe, you want me wear -points at my class t and pe shorts- to pub meh?!"
He said,"Go home change lah -.-"
Me,"I also don't know your friends, i shy leh. :$"
He,"Ma de, you will shy one ah?!"
WHY PEOPLE DON'T BELIEVE I WILL SHY ONE?! *stand at one corner emo*

Napped in the evening and woke up at 9. :) Used com until nao. Tianhong MSNed me to jio whole 64 go JE Swimming Complex to swim&play! Blah. Am still deciding whether to go a not. Later go there Pat kaopeh me. ._. But most probably will go lah uh. Been long since i went out with so many 64. :)

Gotta go, luv. My heart isn't functioning well again. Nb. Whats with this?! I hope i get this off before going to JE tomorrow.

Oh and, my sister is pissed with me bombing so many vulgarities at home. Like every one sentence there is a vulgarity. Damn i think i need someone to scotch-tape my mouth. FML.

P/S: Time for me to change another photo! That photo is like zillion years ago. Ha-ha.

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Tears are the words that lips aren't strong enough to speak.

It's always easy to believe someone when they tell you exactly what you want to hear.

(Thats why people like me exist.)

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He put me through hell and he knows it. That's why he can't talk to me like he used to.

2009-11-20T12:54:00.005+08:00

Yes he is. :')

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Ohayou. :) Woke up not long ago. Anyone had any sweet dreams? I had many dreams. But i only remember the last dream. That was a very very sweet one. :) I want that dream to come true. I don't mind in the far future or what, but at least something a lil' less than that, i am glad. :')

Boo, i am watching Mio TV nao, don't feel like going CO so soon. Wanna finish this episode first. Hee. Okaylah, i go nao. Watch show. Goodie bye! :)

Ohya, i think in order to succeed in watching horror movies in the cinema, the only choice is to feed me more horror movies and more sound effect. I find myself become more brave when it come to all this after each time. Hahaha.

Boo, i have a cut at my finger during CO camp. Stupid scissors. I went to slice myself! Fucking dumb. Ciao. :)

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I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you. How good you look when you smile. How much I love your laugh. I daydream about you off and on, replaying pieces of our conversations. Laughing at funny things you said or did. I've memorized your face and the way that you look at mine. i catch myself smiling again at what I imagine. I wonder what will happen the next time we are together and even though neither of us know what the future holds, I know one thing for sure: you're the best thing that has ever happened to me.

(I do.)

And she's mad at herself because she's not strong enough to show you how she really feels. She just sits there and smiles, and pretends everything's okay.

Hope you did well in your match today.

2009-11-20T04:17:00.004+08:00

Okay. So i met Smallbear.. yesterday/today? ._. then so on. Went Shaw House to eat and chat like shit. We chatted like a lot of things! :) Oh we saw Kelly Pan Jia Li also. I noticed first lor. I pwn her. Hee. Zhiqiang came to meet us and we went Paragon awhile. Went M1 to see phones. Wth, got this boxing game i got 13k can be 3rd what what what. Zzz. Just that i humji never go ask. :/

Went cine and rushed movie. Watched Christmas Carol! Not a recommended movie though, its more for people who are stingy to watch. Really! That was how the storyline goes about in the movie. :/

Went Smallbear's house after that. Camped daidi there. Yay i pwn them one round like with 3 5-cards and 1 duadi and one small card. I rock. :D Yeah only that one round. Others i can go toilet cry. :( Nolah, not really that lousy. :)

Okay need to go sleep nao. Look @ the time! I have CO tomorrow. Dragging myself there again. Nb. Okay lah. Luv you all. Nights. Sweet dreams okay? Loves.
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I'm done pretending, so here it goes: no. I'm not okay with the fact that you broke my heart. No. I'm not okay with the fact we don't even talk anymore. And to top it all off, no. I'm not okay with the fact that I fell in love with you in the first place.

It's sad when people you know became people you knew. When you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life. How you used to be able to talk for hours and now you can barely even look at them.

I am still waiting for that reply y'know.

2009-11-19T13:32:00.002+08:00

Click to enlarge. Special thanks to Hazeline Q. Xing Juan! She is a very sweet girl. :)

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Okay, ZZZ. My mozilla crashed when i posting halfway.

Didn't wake up yesterday night. Zzz :( I suck man. Hurhur. Its raining outside now. Hope the rain decreases when i wanna get out. Ooh, i wanna pierce my helix soon :/ Then maybe tragus also. Then naval! :)

K i go nao. Ciao. :)

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He isn't my boyfriend, but I love his hugs, his smile, his advice, his love, his kindness and the times we laugh together. I guess I fell in love with our friendship.

She wants him to come up behind her and whisper "I love you." I am waiting.

2009-11-18T22:31:00.004+08:00

Cute right cute right? What if she end up like her sister like that?! ._.

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Did I mention that I changed my desktop wallpaper to Lee Min Ho? :X Damn I can't find any other nice photos for my desktop. Blah. Okay neeway, I've been dying to change my blogskin into those one page one. But I am really really lazy (Y) Pigs FTW.

Had CO camp today. Argh, something's wrong with my stomach. I went to bomb the toilet 2 times today. (Y) Slept at 2.30 last night, talked to Yaoming ahgong on the phone and stuff. Woke up at 6.45 like that. Where got enough sleep?! Went CO room to sleep lah. Best. Free aircon somemore. ;)

Slacked like shit. Heng got Xiuqian there with me. If not I alr went home. :) (L)! When they having dinner, me and Xiuqian went off to eat dinner(Pastamania) at Bugis. Sleep like pig on the bus. Blah. I think i heard Xiuqian laugh at me when i sleep. Zzz. Went home and actually i wanted to nap immediately when i reached home. But yeah, i failed, AGAIN. I suck. :(

Okay i think i wait awhile more for 11:11 then i go nap. I need to wake up this time round because i always fail to in the past. Because there is dinner waiting for me in the kitchen. Okay luv you all. I have interview tomorrow. Better than nothing! Can catch up with Amanda also (L)

Hope you people have a goodnight dream. Well i hope i have some too. :) Tata.

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I know it's childish and stupid, and it will probably never happen, but i wish for you at 11:11 every single night.

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And when i first met you, i never would have imagined that i would have such srong feelings for you. I never would have thought that i would have dreams about you or miss being by your side or get butterflies in my stomach when someone mentions your name. When i first met you, i never would have thought that i would love you.