Strumming Some Heartstrings.

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Got this via ______'s blog via her friend's via many other place:

Guys are assholes. If you argue with him, you’re hard-headed. If you’re quiet, you don’t care. If you call him, you’re too clingy crazy. If he calls you, he says you should be happy.

If you don’t love him, he’ll try to win you. When you do love him, he leaves. If you don’t fuck him, you’re a tease. If you do, you’re easy. You tell him your problems, he says you’re irritating. If you don’t, he says you don’t trust him. If you lecture him, you just want to argue. If he lectures you, it’s because he ‘cares.’ If you break a promise, he doesn’t trust you anymore. If he breaks it, it’s because he had to.

If you cheat, he expects it to be over. If he cheats, he wants another chance. Guys drink to forget about girls; girls drink to think back about the guy. When guys are in love, they become poor; when girls are in love, they become pretty. Guys can forget, but can’t forgive; girls can forgive, but can’t forget.

When guys are heart-broken, they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl; when girls are heart-broken, they try to find his characteristics in another guy. Guys wish to be her first love; girls wish to be his last.

Okay i kinda disagree with this : When girls are in love, they become pretty.
What bullshit, i became uglier when i was attached okay. -.-

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Okay so about Saturday's night out, was pissed before meeting Daddy because of some stuff. So Daddy was like SMS-ing me and saying he will sayang me and buy me an ice-cream to make me happy. Met and he really bought me an ice-cream. Luv you Daddy! Then went down to arcade to play HOT4. Went to play Photohunt, Mahjong and Cooking Mama also. Lol.

After that went outside to the open air. Badass daddy wanna smoke. -.- Went back down to lan to play L4D2, stupid mouse so difficult to click. Nb. :/ Went Mac to sit down, slack, eat shaker fries and disiao TMM - I'm not telling you all what TMM is, please ask me via MSN. HAHAHA. Badass daddy wanna smoke again. -.- Then went to watch 2012. Went toilet halfway. I can't spot Peter Chao! I am emo. :( :( :( :( :(

After movie went outside and this muthafucking daddy wanna smoke again. Ma de 3rd time alr hor. Zzz. Ben called Daddy to tell him get his ass down his pub. So we cabbed there. Stayed awhile then Daddy accompanied me home via cab. :) Sweet right. Haha. But he still can't tolerate me singing out loud. Boohoo.

Reached home at near 3, peed and changed slippers. Met Terry Ng and Benzima for supper. Walked to Macpherson Lane, stupid shop never open. So we cabbed to Geylang east Mac. :O Ate and stuff. Daddy called and tell me he coming down chap lao. Went home first and he called. Went out with my poker and ben was with him. Went to the shelter in front to play and mum called at 6 to nag. -.-

Went home and used com to 8. Haha. Slept till 3+. Used com again and met Smallbear and Linlin at Smallbear's house for Sitex! :) Train down. Many people. People banging me like i sponge like that. Went to John Little to shop. 3 of us bought chocs and i bought lipstick too. :) :) :) Very happy. Haha.

Bused to Paya Lebar and have KFC for dinner. Went to Watsons to buy blusher before eating. Nearly went off without paying because i forgot i was holding the blusher and ran out for food. ._. After that went SB's house to have more HTHT with the 2 of them. Cool much. Had so many HTHT. Went home with intention to shit. :D Bombed the toilet and used com till now. Daddy's phone was being confiscated by the officer. Dumbzxzxzx.

Brain, body, lung, heart, kidney, anywhere you can name. I am not feeling very well. I feel like breaking down and cry. When was the last time i did that? Sometimes i really feel like slapping you and tell you to stop hiding your feelings.

Goodnight, world. I smell like SB's blanket because of the perfume. :/ Perhaps tomorrow afternoon for a picture post! :) (5.03AM nao, gosh.)

P/S: Because i love laughing at you being left behind and that i show you i can live my life better without you, although a small part of me still kinda look out for you.

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And when she’s gone, remember you once loved her. You once needed her. You once cared about her more then anything in the world. You can’t deny she was ever there. You can’t deny what you had. You can’t deny it ended over absolutely nothing. You can’t deny you still think about it. No other girl could ever love you the way she does. One day, you’ll realize what you’ve done and you’ll come back. And she’ll.. well she’ll be gone.

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And pretty soon, my diary is going to get sick of hearing his name.

Don't trust me - 3OH!3 :)

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Actually i am kinda lazy to reblog the whole thing since i typed out in point form alr. I guess all that sums up alr. :) Past few days been sleeping at around 6. I slept my whole morning and half afternoon away. Wooooo. :) Didn't had a beautiful dream today also. Boohoo. Yay, cheehao daddy date me out tonight. :) Gonna watch 2012 at Iluma again. I hope i can spot Peter Chao! "Chao ho sai, mother fucker!" :D Daddy is botak and he is being a good guy by saying,"Don't worry i will bring you home!" HAHAHA omg botak daddy. :)

My iTunes is being good to me by shuffling to the songs i wanna listen! Been like that the past few days. Very happy. :) :) :) I LOVE MIKE CHIANG. LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE. Hahaha. I need to go now. Luv luv. I am quite free after today. (: Date me out please. Hee. L4D2 later too! (L)

P/S: Please wait for a pictures post! I am flooded with pictures in my folders to be uploaded. Luvluv.

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And it's those past midnight conversations that still mean everything to me.

And at the end of the day, you're the only one I can't get out of my head.

It's so cute to see someone with a relationship holding hands, flirting, just being in love. And even though it might be something you don't have, it's something that one day, you will find.

Yeah fuck, i missed 11:11 today and saw 11:12. -.-

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Okay, i am not going to post now. Because i can foresee a wordy long post and i will tire myself earlier before i can sleep. Stupid Ghost Trappers, don't let me sleep. HMPH. So i'll just list out in point form what i will blog tomorrow in case i wake up with a beautiful dream and forgets what happen past 2 days. -.-

• Met Haikal, L4D2 (Y).
• Home(change), bused to Tampines.
• Met Linlin, Smallbear, Kitmun, camped toilet.
• Departed, train to Kallang.
• Meet Cristal, cabbed to Indoor Stadium.
• Back school, bused home.
• Went Smallbear's house and bitched. :)
• Woke up with a sweet dream. Cristal cut it off by calling me. But its okay! Because i know whats the main point. LOL.
• Bused to school then bus brought CO to Indoor Stadium.
• Played games then rehearsed.
  
• Saw ZLS, hugged him! Omg omg omg omg omg i am so in love with him (L)!!!!!
  
• Slack for super long. Make-up and camwhore.
• Our turn, some muthafucka video-ing me. Zz.
• Went back to pack and chiong to see David Tao sing. (Y)
• Chiong to his room outside to get his signature and stuff.
• Security guard quite hawt actually. Damn, didn't ask his name, oh well. Enough of bimbo-ing.
• Saw David Tao, kenna shoo by security guards. Nnb.
• Went off and a ____ asked me for number... ZZ/LOL?
• With Cristal's family to KFC.
• Ate and her dad ferried me home.
• Play Murderer.
  
• Back home.

Goodbye to all the photos, goodbye to you. I am still so afraid of looking back. But fret not, i will get over and done with as soon as i can. :') Friends - if you don't mind.

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Okayokayokay, a quick one before i head to sleep! Fucking look at the time nao. I think i am suppose to feel sleepy, but not a bit i do. Still wanna stay awake. But nope, i don't want a scolding from my mum. Eh btw, yesterday was my dad's birthday, so..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FATHER :) 50 liao. :O

Went to Smallbear's house and slacked for 2 hours. Y'know what? I am meeting Jootong tomorrow at 12, so i am left with less than 6 hours to sleep. Boohoo. Okay luv you all. I needa go, like now! Actually i do have something to blog about.. but. I forgotten. :( Okay maybe one: I think this holidays i can forget about getting a nail art! ._. Prolly only a classic/french mani & pedi. I need to pamper myself. Boohoo.

Actually i do pamper myself. But fuck, where all my money goes? :( Okay gooooo. Nights! Sweet dreams to all of you. Luv.

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Just when you think that nothing is going to make your day better, you turn the corner and see him waiting for you with a big smile on his face.

It's weird how you go from being strangers, to being friends, to being more than friends, to being practically strangers again, so fast.

I really do love your smile! And i miss it too. :')

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本大小姐刚上茅厕放大号只用了两分钟！- Forget it if you don't understand. I just wanna praise myself. HAHAHA. Okay neeway! Went for job interview and will receive a call from them on Monday. :) Went to eat at LJS and started to talk crap. ._. Then to The Face Shop! Daryl was left alone outside and the 3 girls were shopping around the shop :) I bought lip gloss. Muahahaha. Then went arcade in hope that there is HOT4. I went,"Eh eh eh!!! Have leh have leh!!! -approach closer to the machine- *Machine under maintenence* NNB!!!!! :'( " You should have see my reaction. Best (Y)

Then Smallbear and Kitmun went to some shop whereas me and Daryl went to the pet shop to see dogs. :) :) :) Fucking cute okay, i wanna kidnap one away. :O Cristal called and started to rush me. Went toilet and the girls camwhore a bit. ._. Departed with them and trained to Kallang. Bused 12 to her house and she was shocked that i recognise where her house is :) Cabbed to Indoor Stadium. We should have walk lah nb. Reached also wait. -.- It was our turn and i befriend some monk... :/ and a girl, Yingying! ;) I cool. LOL. She also very funny. :) Danced, camwhored a bit, exercised. (Y)

Walked to KLP for *bucks and also to meet with Cristal's dad. Saw one actor which i don't really know his name. Kept staring at me like i will ask your signature. Bleah! > :D Cristal's dad ferry me home and tadah i am blogging. :)

Done and idk where i will go tomorrow afternoon! Rehearsal in the night againnnnn. Luv you all. xoxo! Maybe heading to Smallbear's house later on. Taaaaa.

P/S: I am done with renewing links and deleting unused ones and updating :) Mission accomplished! *pat myself on my shoulder* :D

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I hate how we're fading away like this. No one needs you like I do. You know that and you always have.

I didn't know that I liked you until that one night. I was staring at the ceiling and all I could do was think about you.

Just ask her if she thinks about him. She'll think back to an old memory, close her eyes, and smile. She'll say, "Yeah, every once in a while."

Which way you wanna walk? :) Me: The right one.

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So i stayed at home the whole day until 10+ PM, Smallbear called to ask if i wanna get my ass out to play Murderer. I said okay, later i get out. I was busy harvesting, plowing and planting my FV lor. -.- Tedious workkkkk. Got my ass out and there were 14 of us at the playground. Sat beside Joohoe and Daryl. Me, Daryl and Ben gang up see each other's card one. ._. Got so bored of being a victim, then a new round, i fucking got police! :) Caught Damien and shit, who is the other person? :x I forgot alr. Muaha. Best memory (Y)

Went to buy drinks at 365 alone and this ahlian and beng behind me. Want get drinks can say properly ma. I have a fragile heart. Lol. Went back and continue. Sat beside Smallbear and Jootong. Finally got murderer. Wink at Daryl. He fucking laugh at me. :( :( :( Then wink at Kitmun and Damien. ._. I forgot who catch me. :O

Played till 12+. When back Smallbear's house. 4 people queuing up for toilet. -.- Slowly all went home and left me at their house. Daidi-ed with Smallbear and Joohoe. She kept smelling her kor's hair. So i tried also.. er, not bad lah. LOL. Then jootong bathe finish, i went to smell his. Eh wtf, i know what shampoo he use lor. ._. Is the same as ______. :/ Suddenly thought of ______, boohoo.

Went home and used com. Suddenly very tired then went to sleep alr. ._. Going on date later Smallbear, Daryl and Kitmun at vivo. Nolah, job interview. Muaha. Seeya all. xoxo. I wanna befriend _____, she is a very sweet girl! (:

Deleted photos about you. Left the ones in my phone to be deleted. I am not going to throw or keep bearbear away. It doesn't mean anything about you. Its just a soft toy that i hug to sleep. :)

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I miss the days when boys had cooties and recess was too short. When life was too long and decisions were made by "eeny, meeny, miney, moe." Only skinned knees brought tears and boys were yucky. Goodbye only meant until tomorrow and when your clothes didn't need to match. The only race issues were who ran faster and fun went on forever, without a broken heart.

I find myself glancing in your direction in between periods. And it makes my heart jump all over the place when I catch you staring right back.

So i shall stop being your doll and stop letting things to happen that benefits you.

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H-h-h-h-hello! :) Wanted to blog yesterday midnight.. but i think i was getting sleepy very fast, so i didn't manage to. :) Okay, i met the others at 6:30. I was the last, so am i supposed to feel honored or something? :D But when we reached we waited for like 2 hours lor. So whats the difference if i came earlier or later. Hahaha. Initially played daidi, but more wanted to join in so we opened up to play murderer. 14 people played. :) So reached and we rehearsed. When Zheng laoshi turned back can see me. I did hand signal saying,"I-love-you~" He immediately,"*vomits* Hahahahaha!" Idiot leh. But i still love him. Hahaha.

Then saw Joanne(every CNY will come my house bai nian). On the way back school raped juniors. :x Sat Cristal dad's car home. Reached home use com and bathe, went to Smallbear's house at 1. Saw tianhong sleeping there drunk. :O Then went to the living room to gossip with Smallbear. Suddenly we heard tianhong crying.

Smallbear,"Eh, whats that sound?"
Me,"Don't know leh, like laughing like that."
Joohoe,"Eh, to me like crying liao."
Me and Smallbear,"Shit!"
-run to the door-
Smallbear,"Crying sia.."
): Tianhong relax okay!
Me still love you as a friend :)

Zhiqiang came and we went to eat supper. Shit. If i do this almost everyday i will become fat lor. All the oil. :/ Ate banana prata and cheese egg prata. Lol. Walked back and bought bacardi breezer to drink. Nehnehpok zhiqiang say he want see me cry then i can join tianhong. Cb right this guy. :D Went to smallbear's house to slack awhile then went home at around 4. :) Slept with my heart pounding and face red lor. Nb.

Boo, no date today. ._. Maybe a date at Smallbear's house with 64? Haha. xoxo.

I shall stop being your doll and that you think you can play with me. I will delete everything about you that i think of. I hope you suffer more than i do, muthafucka. _l_

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Twenty years from now, I am going to look back and remember that there were those few people who could turn every frown into a smile in a few simple words. Those people who lifted my head when I was losing faith in myself. Those few people who carried tears on their shoulders after every fight, every break up, every death. The people who always knew what I was feeling by the look on my face. The few who accepted who I was when everyone else laughed in my face. Those people that accepted every decision I made believing that I’d make the right decisions. The few who knew who I really was. Those people that made the biggest difference in my life. The ones who were my strength through hard times. My best friends.

Boy: What's your biggest fantasy?
Girl: To be kissed in the rain. How about you?
Boy: To be the one kissing you in the rain.

Be lucky to have him as a friend, 'cause if you and him date and then break up, that friendship will never be the same. And in those months, you don't have him as a friend, those will be the months you need him the most, and you won't have him. He's a great friend, so don't wish for more than you have, 'cause you have it better than anyone to have him me your best friend.

What if i get this kind of tattoo? :)

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Boo, need to show my face at school at 6:10 later. But i am still blogging and eating food! Pro or what? Need to go SCH later for rehearsal again. Booooo. After this week i think i am free from school but draining with work. Trying to be independent hor. Don't look down on me. Reallyyyyy.

Btw i succeeded in deleting an album on my FB. Need to delete folders from my desktop and my phone. Need to continue walking alone. :) At least i know who my real friends are. Thanks 64, thanks Haikal. :) Luv you all. xoxo.

Signing off, love.

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There are so many different types of friends. The friends that come in your life for a year, the best friends that come and stay for a while but will eventually leave in high school. Then there's the forever friends, the kind that come into your life, make a huge impact, and never leave.

It's like a best friend, but more. It's the one person in the world who knows you better than anyone else. That someone who makes you be a better person. No, actually they don't make you a better person; you do that by yourself because they inspire you. A soul mate is someone you carry with you forever. It's one person who knew you, accepted you and believed in you before anyone else did or when no one else would. And no matter what happens, you'll always love them and nothing could ever change that.

[ Dawson's Creek ]

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Hello :) :) :) Did anyone miss me? :/ Heh. I don't wanna know the reply man. Hahaha. Okay neeway, will start from JE swimming complex. 11 of us went - Tianhong, NJP, Pat, Ben, Jiaxin, Jootong, Joohoe, Damien, Darryl, Jeremy and me. :) Played at the lazy river first... and another group of people nearly have trouble with us because of me. Nolah, heng never :) Played at the slide then wave come alr, all chiong to wave. Funny, we at the side standing one vertical line, the wave come we,"Woahhhhhh~~~" then jump to grab the wall. :x Don't know what happen, Jeremy started shout,"Kaopeh!" then the others,"Kaobu!". "Kaopeh!" "Kaobu!" "Sibei Kaopeh!" "Sibei Kaobu!" "Kampua kaopeh!" "Kampua kaobu!" Hahaha.

Then started to rain, all hide under the bridge. We hide at the same one as the group mentioned on top. Pat deliberately talk like he shouting to attract them. -.- Then we can go down the pool alr we dropped in lazy river. :) Wave come again and practically only the group of us were there to own the pool first. Hahaha! Lie at the start of the pool and was singing until really cmi, tianhong came to pull my leg and "drag me to hell". Zzz. They even did water boys somemore! Wth! ._.

Played for 3 hours then we went to bathe alr. After that ate at the KFC. :) Trained home, wanted to head to grandlink to play, but didn't because many of them want watch soccer. So slacked at 64 daidi. Around 2+AM when to Macpherson Lane to eat supper. :) Pat, Ben, Pk, Jiaxin, Tianhong, Jootong, Zhiqiang and me. Ate cheese egg prata. Muaha. On the way back got some freaky thing happen. Pat most humji. First time see one (Y) hahaha.

Went home and used com till 5. Slept till 10:50AM woke up, 11:35 met Jootong to head to Orchard to pass money to the work person. ._. Went to walk around Forum shopping centre while waiting. 1:30 met and went off to walk around Forum again. Cristal called to say is meet 2:15 outside school. Cabbed home and rushed like shit then cabbed to school. Join the others to go SCH. Rehearsed then back school and went home to change with Cristal. Join her family for dinner at Nihon Mura! Enjoyed myself. Hehehe. Went home at around 9 and to Smallbear's house to play daidi. They went to eat and i went home. Intended to nap only because Zhiqiang wanna eat supper again, so i told Pk to spam call me if they are going to eat. But none called me so i slept till 9 in the morning. -.-

Had a bad dream while sleeping... then i woke up use the com 10+ slept again. The dream continued itself. Wtf. Bad bad bad bad bad. But i didn't cry lah. Boo. Going to eat with 64 again. Seeya all. Rehearsal later again. Luv you all. Tata :)

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Ever have that one person in your life that you just can't give up on, the one person that can screw you over time after time yet you always seem to give them another chance, and no matter how many times you say this is their last one, you know it's a lie because there's always just one more waiting for them. the one person you know you're better off without but yet you can't find a way to let them go because deep down inside, you wouldn't know what to do without them. The one person you know doesn't deserve you but yet you choose to overlook it because you love him.

Go up behind her and tickle her. She'll scream and yell and tell you to stop. But I promise she'll secretly love it. You're her entire world, kid.

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A quick one before i head out to Smallbear's house to meet up with others. Late for 2 min alr, but not that bad because her house is only 20 steps away from mine. :) Cool. I hope tianhong and nai ge will protect me from Pat. He suck man. LOL. Did i just say he sucks? Oops. :)

Neeway, i bought a wrong trap in MH, am very emo about it. 300k you know. :'( Cry liao lah. Oh, my sister is sick! Should i or not tell her past to me? :x Okay gtg. Luv you all. Have a good afternoon and evening okay! (K)

P/S: Yay! No more popup box from Twitter alr! :) :) :)

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Let's face it. We've changed. We've all changed. Somewhere between summer ending and school starting, we've all gone in our own directions. Hearts were broken, friendships diminished, new love started and new people came into our lives. We no longer spend all of our time in our own circle of friends, we no longer talk for hours about nothing at all. We've changed--some for the better, some for the worse. Some of us are finding love and others are trying to let go. Even though we've changed, we all know that even though we're all finding our own place in the world, that when we find love, when we let go of love, when the tears fall, or the happy smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, and no matter what happens, nothing will never change so much to the point that we're not all friends forever.

No matter how serious life gets, you still gotta have that one person you can be stupid with.

If only JE Swimming complex's slides can be like that. I think i will stuff to death inside.

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Boohoo. Was reading back my blog post from Nov 07. All the typing like.. like that one laa . so scary lor ! How did i manage to type like that. ._. Stopped reading until Dec 07. I am afraid that if i read more i can't take it and break down. Which totally sucks. Heart is not functioning well. Me don't like. Me want time past a bit faster than this. :/

I lost the courage to sort things out. Brainwash me please. I turn in nao. Luv you all. :)

"You and your branded stuffs."

The truth is that I gave my heart away a long time ago. My whole heart. And I never really got it back.

All I could think about was that time we stayed up all night talking. You didn't say that I was wrong or stupid. You didn't laugh at me when I confessed my wildest dreams. You just listened, and it was then I knew that I wanted to be with you.